My Survival

My Survival

It’s been a while.
It’s been a long while,
A long while since I’ve seen you.
Seen your enchanting countenance

Since you captured my heart,
By your amazing compassion

Since you held my heart,
In your tender loving hands
In no way giving me
A hesitation of agony

Since you paralyzed me by your touch,
As if I put my existence in your protection

Since you captivated me with your voice,
Like a cobra being charmed.
Just so that its master could
Touch it without danger

Since you took me to galaxies
I had only dreamed of
As if I were in a fairytale
Like those which I only
Watched as a young girl

Took me to waters unchartered
By any ship, captain or crew,
Such spotless innocent waters
Free of pollution

Lifted me up and
Sent me spinning uncontrollably
Just by your embrace
As if You possessed some
Magical potency

One glance at you sent an
Inadvertent smile upon my face,
As if you had control of my body and soul.

We built a mansion together,
It was founded on faith,
Was withheld by trust,
And sheltered by dreams.
This majestic mansion ,
Was furnished with our love.

When I was absent your presence I was,
Sent into an episode,
An episode of tears,
An episode
Where I could not even think straight,
As if my mind were lacking,
The oxygen which you supplied it.

Who would have ever thought?
Thought that I could ever survive
Survive through you taking my precious heart
And throwing it
Throwing it amongst the blood thirsty lions,
And walking away
With out a shutter

Who would have ever thought?
Thought that I could survive.
Survive the sleepless nights,
Which I spent asking myself:
Why did you reject me.
Why did you leave me
Why did you forget me

Asking myself:
Why did you take me,
Into the protection,
And enveloped me with
What I naively thought
Were your angel wings,
But now I realize it was your veil.
Your veil of selfish needs,
Selfish wants,
Lies.

Lies that,
For the time being satisfied
Satisfied my very hunger
For what I thought I wanted
What I thought I needed.

Who would have ever thought?
Thought that I could ever survive
Survive through the multiple occasions
Where I,
Dropped my pride,
I gave in
I came to tears in your presence,
And begged you to forgive.
Forgive me
Forgive my actions
Forgive my very being,
Knowing all along,
That I was never in the wrong.

Survive through the denial of mercy
Shown from you,
No,
You showed none.

Yes,
That was my heart you struck each
And every time you sent out a word
A word that told me you had forgotten,
Forgotten what we had,
Or did we?

Who would have thought that I would have survived?
Survived you turning your back upon me,
And watching you carelessly walk
Away from me,
Physically and mentally.

Survive through
All your promised words
Blowing away like the wind blowing over the ocean.
Never knowing when or where it would stop.

The majestic mansion we once had,
Washed away with the tide.
As if it were a temporary shelter.

But, I will never hate you,
Never deny you,
Never take all of my heart back.

You taught me.
Taught me how to truly love a person,
Heart and soul.

But,
I did survive.
I will survive.
Because you were right,
I am a soldier.
I lived through the war,
The war you willingly put me into.
Yes, you put me there.

Even though I trusted you with my whole heart,
You lied and deceived me.
And now,
Thanks to you,
I am stronger.
I now know I can live through hell and back,
How?
Because I just did.

My Survival

tinkster08

Greenville, United States

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