My Apology

Im sorry

Sorry for the person I am
The person who sometimes:
Becomes selfish when none are around
Becomes lazy at times
Falters in her speech
Corrects those around her
Gets mistaken for others

Sorry for being naïve
Naïve in believing your lies
Which you conveniently
Laid out
like a carpet
For me to walk upon
So that I would not get my feet wet
wet in the dirty truth of life
The dirty truth of love

Sorry for judging things
Which I see need to be changed
Changed because of their faults
because they are full of hatred
Full of selfish tactics
Full of appalling traditions

Sorry for being adventurous
For stepping out of my boundaries
The boundaries which
Hold you captive
To others and to your small box
Which you personally put yourself into.

Sorry for being different
For hating normality to my very core
For denying myself
The luxuries of normality
For demanding that my mind
be opened to all the world

Sorry for silencing myself
Silencing myself when
I felt the whole world was against me
And all I could do was hide
Hide in the shadows of the lies
The lies which world’s leaders
promise are all truth

Sorry for my past
For making all the ignorant mistakes
Which I learned from
Which make up the person I am
Which I have taken and turned into positivity

Sorry for my words
Which I blindly threw out there
Never thinking of the consequences
Never thinking they would be heard
Never thinking meaning would be put behind them

Sorry for the things I have not spoken
For holding my soul back
Back from what it truly possesses
Deep within itself
Which I may be crucified for
For the difference in what I say
And what I truly feel

Sorry for the thoughts I have had
Where I discovered worlds
Worlds which you
Hold yourself back from,
Like the ocean,
Which holds layers within itself
And must be ventured to
To actually comprehend
Or value its very existence

Sorry for the idea that all would reside here evermore
For naively thinking that
My family would never leave
Leave this world
To go to the next
Where they would surely
Live an unproblematic eternity

Sorry for not being there
Being there for you
When you needed me most
For you reaching out
and finding
My promised hand
I guess that is
What you and I have
In common, though.

Sorry for taking so long
To tell you the truth
the truth about life
About your friends,
which stood behind your back
And told you lies
Then turned around
To tell me deeper lies

Sorry for believing we could make it
Make it through the devil’s orb,
Which was our home.
the whole time.
Make it through all the lies
Which you told,
Which the world told.
All the tears
Which were my lullaby at night.
All the blood
Which I shed for us.
All the failed dreams
Which fell like one domino in a chain,
Knowing the rest would come soon.
All the failed attempts
Attempts to come together,
But only growing apart.

And I am sorry
Sorry it took me so long
To apologize
to apologize for the things
I should not even have
To apologize for.

My Apology


Greenville, United States

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Artist's Description

I was just tired of making excuses for everything



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