"better to have loved & lost" august 24, 2010

you lovers
stop your fighting
instead embrace what’s worth fighting for
or else,
listen to me,
hear my threat,
you’ll fight against yourself even more
cause i look
in the mirror
& i’m my own reminder of
the simple,
single step
the other way that
leads to the feelings that murder love

yea i have been there

& since then
i’ve been addicted to the gloom
staring into that
empty space that
happens to be the heart of my room
i black out &
imagine him dying
just to make the thought easier to eat
but once i feel
it go to my gut
i realize this guy is already dead to me

but it seems
like more lately
gravity weighs a thousand pounds
& it’s putting
pain on my
whole body till i
burst in tears just from walking around
cause it all
lingers on my
shoulders
pressure sinks, pressing down hard
& my body
shakes so much
i can’t tell
the vibrations apart from my own heart
if you don’t
know how i feel
then you’re
lucky cause there is nothing right
about telling
yourself you’ll
wake up
tomorrow morning
but right now you’re dead for the night

i don’t remember
how to pray
i just say these little things to God
like forgive me
for screaming
“KILL ME!”
& not controlling what desperation can’t stop
you know this
is what makes
me wanna tare all of my skin off
to maybe get a
second chance to never feel love & loss

so lovers
never take
for granted
this gift you have in your grip
don’t waste
you’re time
on the negatives or you may lose it
like literally
lose your mind
fall out of reality
lose sensibility
& gain deeper
wounds that will never heal with time
it’s all about
getting to
the point & never falling out
if you do
then screw love
you’re better lost without a doubt

"better to have loved & lost" august 24, 2010

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Joined June 2010

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