Unable to Hold Myself Together.....

Okay, so I figured out today that I am softer than I had thought.

My 4 year old daughter, Alyssa had to have a few fillings in her teeth. The child has horrible gag reflexes, so she isn’t able to take any kind of liquid medications. Therefore oral sedation was not an option for this work to be done. So, it was arranged at the local Hospital and she had to undergo anestesia.

Now this was a first for me. So, I get her in her gown and she tells me “Mommy I am scared.” Okay, that was the start of my heartbreak! So then my husband comes back at the request of our precious daughter. Then, it was time, only one of us could go back with her for the anestesiologist to sedate her. They told me that she would take a few breaths and would drift asleep with ease. Uh huh….I was okay with that….until it actually happened. And I will hand it to them, they did say it is usually pretty hard for the parents to watch. And OMG!!! They weren’t joking!!!

They sat her on the mattress. She was fine. They cranked up the gas for the sedation and showed her the mask. Needless to say, it was strange and she wanted no parts of it. Now keep in mind here, my children are serious fighters!!! If they don’t want something done…..it gets ugly! Therefore, Alyssa flipped out. Next thing I knew, I was sitting there in blue scrubs helpless as two nurses and the dentist held her down to the bed and the anestesiologist gased her. She kicked, screamed, and yelled terribly and all the sudden she went completely limp! That scared me to death!!! I knew it was going to happen, but the sight was just entirely too damn much for me. My baby wanted me and there wasn’t a thing I could do about it. She needed the work done to prevent future problems.

So the dentisit sees me out….I am crying…..I get out the main doors, take off the scrubs and head outside for a smoke to calm me….didn’t work…I lost it and broke down even worse than I had in the surgery room where she lay for this dental work. But my husband and dear friend Debra were there to see me through.

Now as if all that wasn’t bad enough, I had developed a killer migraine headache! My head was splitting, my eyes were messing with me, I was light sensitive, and I was nautious! Then I got really hot, so I went to the gift shop to get something for the headache. Then headed upstairs, grabbed Alyssa’s plush doggy and used it as a pillow and burried my face in it and laid my head down. I napped a little off and on. 30 minutes into the work, the dentist called me to let me know my baby girl was doing just fine. Ok, so that was good news, but my head was still splitting! Another half hour passed and it was done, she was headed to recovery, Thank Goodness!!! Finally a nurse came out and took me to my daughter. There she lay, asleep, resting, looking like a little angel. I was relieved it was over. My headache was easing up a good bit at this point. Alyssa was resting a little too well. They warned us that she would probably wake up really fussy and crying. But not my Alyssa, she awoke just fine. She was happy, felt great, no pain, no sickness. She was hungry and thirsty. So she got something to drink and eat. She held it down fine, and it was no time before they took the little IV out of her arm and gave us her discharge papers.

Needless to say, I was happy with the way it turned out. Everyone took really good care of her and were very sweet through the procedure and her recovery.

So, needless to say, it has been one hell of a day!!!
Anyhow, just needed to vent a little lol.

Unable to Hold Myself Together.....

Tara Johnson

Fishersville, United States

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