My Journey ~ But for the Grace of God there go I ....

This life was once filled with heartache and pain,
Never thought that I would ever sustain.
Years of this soul being tattered and bruised ,
I struggled through life being abused.

I hid my shame and I wore a mask,
pretended I was happy when I was asked.
I felt abandoned and left out in life,
all I remembered or knew was strife.

I prayed and prayed for the strength to endure,
never thought I would ever feel secure.
Then one morning at the age of thirty four,
I found the strength to close that door.

I Asked God for His guidance and a path,
I knew inside that there would be more wrath.
For a few more years I struggled and found,
it hard to stand on solid ground.

Life was rough and I saw no end,
that is where it really began.
Children grown and leaving home,
I found it hard to be alone.

The party life I thought was now for me,
but that is what broght me to my knees.
Alcohol and drugs were my choice,
I never stopped to think it twice.

Addicted by now to booze and crack,
I did not know how to make it back.
In some small sane part of my mind,
I knew I was in an awful bind.

Even though I knew it to be a great sin,
I felt I was about to do myself in.
I needed help and needed it fast,
I would not last long with my past.

God please help me I can’t take any more,
He gently showed me an open door.
What is this, I began to say,
then I read a sign that said A.A.

I walked in an I sat down,
keeping my eyes to the ground.
I lifted my head and all I could see,
was people just the same as you and me.

I was told , we are a group in the very same boat,
doing our best to help each other stay afloat.
Our motto is “One Day At A Time”,
if you could stay you will be fine.

I’ve been in these rooms now, for a few twenty four’s,
I’ve come to Believe and so much more.
Thru my Higher Power’s mercy and His grace,
I’ve dealt with the problems that filled that space.

I’ve done the 12 steps suggested to me,
did not skip from number one to three.
I’ve done my inventory and made my amends,
gotten on my knees and prayed for friends.

The only way that I can keep what I’ve got ,
is to give it away, wither I like it or not.
A few simple steps will keep me sane ,
So in this club I shall ever remain.

Poetry By: Madeline M. Allen

My Journey ~ But for the Grace of God there go I ....

Madeline M  Allen

Winnipeg, Canada

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Today I am filled with gratitude for the life I had, I would not change a moment. Though it may seem strange to some. The lessons I have learnt from an early age of thirteen when I left home right into my adulthood . If I did not have those experiences , I would not have what I have today. God has truly blessed me. I may not have everything I want, but I have everything I need in this life to be happy.

My inner rumblings reflect my personal trials,
dreams, needs and obligations.
My Poetry reflects who I am

Poetry By: Madeline M. Allen

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