The fog was thick-I couldn’t see 10ft in front of me…rolled over my eyes like molasses. I was sitting on a piece of driftwood-large, dark, damp-covered with scattered bits of sand. The moment was indistinguishable from night or day-just grey with no indication of time or date-just parallel to whatever else was going on in the world. With the waves clapping an ovation on the edge of the beach-I was freezing, but it wasn’t even cold. My whole life blurred into this moment-my death. I have been here before. This has happened before. Is god going to let me kill myself today? I can’t swim. I would surely drown. My body would wash up with the tide; cold, raw and pale. My lips blue, devoid of oxygen. I could see myself lying in autopsy-the doc whispering silently into a recorder. “So young, she thinks”. Determining my cause of death seems pointless, but she has made a living out of uncovering how each of us has spent our last waking hour. She’s a writer too. She imagines me diving through the surf-or maybe I walked? After swallowing a gallon of sea my eyes panicked, but I was too far…too late, and I didn’t want to be saved. Buoying in and out of the water eyes glazed I calm myself. She imagines me peacefully slipping beneath the waves accepting my choice. Now she can sleep better tonight. Still, she wishes I had chosen differently. She learned I had worked in that hospital. I had walked through those sliding doors 5 ft past the java cart. She sees me-before my life was in disarray-when all the pieces seemed to fit intricately into place. Who would have thought? She wonders if she could be here lying on this table, sharing that with me in some future ripple in time-if we were connected. What did I represent in her life? Was she going to die?



Mobile, United States

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to think-sometimes life comes to crisis, yet it is the calmest I’ve ever felt


death life

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