demon days

I want to fall asleep,
Maybe to never wake up again
Just to dream this all away
And not feel any of this pain.

But my love i am awake
And the pain is sharp and clear
This feeling is all encompassing
And it’s feeding off my fear.

I want to start again
To wipe the past away
As if nothing ever happened
And now i start anew today.

But my love it did happen
And i cant make it go away
All my wishes and all my dreams
Cannot ever make it fade.

I want to fly away
To a place I’ll never know
Where all that’s empty can be refilled
Where everything old can regrow

But my love i cannot fly
I am stuck, as grounded as ever
With myself and my reality
And the time we ruined together.

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