.05 mechanical pencil on paper
18″ × 24″
this was done out as an act of discipline. if you know my work, you will understand when I say that I have always tried to strike a balance between my impatience and love for the immediate and/or random interactions between my materials and how they interact with more influence then control by me along side of that old school disciplined figurative drawer who focuses on those tiny details. Usually, the latter mentioned form of myself is overpowered by the zen artist who plays in the mud.
I have always let the disciplined, anal-retentive, technical drawing geek out of his cage at least a little bit but he never stays around long because my own impatience no longer tolerates him. This drawing was done as an act of mostly discipline. It was my way of taking on the task of doing something in a way that defies my nature as an act of penance. Looking at those old stone buildings that are carved in stone with the greatest of care by devout ancient people makes me realize how lazy and impatient i am.
This drawing was intended to slow me down to teach myself discipline again. it taught me that i can improve myself through pushing beyond my character weaknesses and create something that was almost entirely about those weaknesses. through practices like this, i hope to find a balance and let lose my true self.
the next one is going to have to be bonkers…