My Hell

The floor feels smooth and cold under my bare feet. I know I should feel puzzled about why I am not in bed, but I feel unusually calm as I continue walking. Suddenly I’m walking in rough, bumpy terrain, as if some mischievous magician is playing a joke on me. As I continue on my perpetual walk I can see that the terrain ends in a sheer drop, yet I feel no fear. My feet don’t hurt as I walk over the uncertain ground. I can see clearly through the misty grayness that surrounds me on all sides. Up ahead I notice an enormous, shadowy castle standing against the gloom, like a fortress from hell. The darkness seems invasive, but suddenly I can see flickering lights that seem to be coming from lanterns set on the black castle walls. The lights dull, so that I can barely see the dark, somber castle. The castle looms over me with an ancient hunger that seeps through the walls as I get closer to it. I hear happy, ringing noises from the castle, but they offer no comfort. I hesitate a moment outside but then enter the castle without knocking on the door, as familiarly as if it were my own home. Everything is too bright and somehow fragile and delicate looking. People turn to smile at me, so that it appears as if they have all been expecting me. I look at the people as they dizzily whirled around and around on the dance floor. They are dressed in glamorous outfits that look old-fashioned, as if they come from some other era, or a past time. I think about my nightgown and bare feet, and feel suddenly embarrass and out of place, which is odd as this is only a dream. It must be no more than a fragment of my mind, whild my body is safe in bed. But when I look down at myself, I see that my feet are encased in white, satin slippers. A white, delicate dress swirls around me in an entrancing dance, yet I don’t feel truly surprise. This is all a dream and in dreams everything is possible. I have been chosen; I looked the part of a beautiful bride-to-be. Where is he, I wonder, my groom? Suddenly I turn and see him standing in the shadowy hallway amidst the endless colors of the evening. Oh, how splendid he looks, how very beautiful. Yet for the first time in this unreal world I’m truly afraid. He walks towards me and takes my hands in his cold gentle ones. He leads me forward, forward towards our destiny. I feel stifle and want to get away from him, yet his gentle hands are like iron as they cling to mine. He squeezes my hand firmly as if aware of my traitorous thoughts. I feel hate, and suddenly I know I have hated him for a long time, since I had realized he was to be my husband, that I was to belong to him body and soul. Under the pleasant veneer, I can feel the evil that seeps through him to contaminate me. I know he is a monster and I want to escape from him, from this nightmare. I hear the sweet, soft tinkle of melodious music wafting towards us a deceivingly beautiful scent. I know at last that I’m trap forever in this place. I have died in my old world, and I realize with sudden, cruel clarity that I’m in hell. Trap, terrify, I turn to look at the handsome stranger and he smiles endearingly at me. “Why me?,” I screamed at him, yet my words come low and gentle so that the eternal whirling dancers merely smile at me, unaware of the hell I’m trap in. He continues smiling, almost reverently, as he holds my hand. “We deserved each other”, he tells me in his soft, gentle voice. I scream and yet we are both suddenly laughing as if this were the greatest day of my life. My cruelness in life has followed me to the end. We smile, husband and wife forevermore. No, it wasn’t supposed to be this way. I should have won, I should have won. It is not fair, I’m so young. I deserve a second chance. Even murdererds get a trail. I try to scream, but instead I laugh; we all laugh as we intertwine our destinies for all eternal death in this dance. He smiles at me, but in his eyes I see my death in a fiery blaze of light.

My Hell


Joined February 2008

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A woman faces her worst nightmare on her wedding night- her groom!!

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