Summer Skin [One Shot]

*Title: Summer Skin

Author: Jay(PurpleHaze)

Rating: N-17

Theme: One shot/Romance

Setting: Summer/Fall in Ontario, Canada.

Summary: There must have been five girls, but it was her face that caught my attention. She had this incredibly flowing black hair with a smooth pale face. When the sun caught her eyes, I swear I saw ecstasy. There was something about her that made me want to hold her hand and kiss her cheek. Everything about her had this gorgeous yet fragile feeling.

Disclaimer: I don’t own David, I don’t own Seb and I don’t own the song Summer Skin. I own the thoughts, feelings and Katarina.*

Summer Skin

Heavy drops of water fell solemnly from the sky and littered the already wet ground. The wind blew through my hair and chilled my spine as I pulled my sweatshirt tighter to my shivering body. Swings creaked in the distance but the laughter of children had died down quite some time ago. Their soft smiles had been replaced with gray autumn clouds. Summer was slowly slipping between my cold fingers. The heat, the laughter, the love was slipping away. But as much as I wanted them to, the memories wouldn’t leave. Her fingertips were lodged into the creases of my mind and she refused to let go. I remember every little detail of the last three months. I remember everything.

You couldn’t look anywhere without seeing kids and teenagers. There wasn’t one unsmiling face, besides mine. I walked silently next to Seb, eyes lowered to my every footstep.

“Come on Dave, she doesn’t matter, let’s just have fun this summer,” Seb tried to console. I shook my head and looked at him with hurt in my eyes.

“She does matter Seb,” I whispered weakly, averting my eyes once again. He sighed and the silence had returned as we kept walking.

I heard loud voices in the distance just as Seb prodded me with his elbow.

“Look at them!” he exclaimed and pointed to the few girls sitting around an old picnic table.

There must have been five girls, but it was her face that caught my attention. She had this incredibly flowing black hair with a smooth pale face. When the sun caught her eyes, I swear I saw ecstasy. There was something about her that made me want to hold her hand and kiss her cheek. Everything about her had this gorgeous yet fragile feeling. My eyes weren’t even close to leaving her body when Seb began walking towards them. I panicked and looked away from the girl. I walked slowly behind Seb as he reached their table.

“Hey girls, how’s it going?” he asked lightly, giving them a small smile. Seb always had the innocent thing going for him. But deep down he really is a generous, caring kid.

“Not too bad, how about yourselves?” A girl with, spiky red and blue hair replied. You could tell right away she was friendly and far from shy.

The way she presented herself on the exterior with black combat boots and plaid plants, was enough to say she knew very well how to express herself.

“We’re good, there isn’t much to do around here, we thought we’d come over and say hi. I’m Seb and this is David,” Seb talked smoothly to the girl, who I now know as Maddie.

While Seb chatted with Maddie I mustered the courage to walk over to the nameless beauty. She had just pulled out a cigarette as I approached her.

“I-I’m David,” I managed to say, tripping on the beginning of my sentence. She gave me a small smile which sent my knees into all kinds of different frenzies.

“Katarina, but you just call me Kat,” she introduced softly, holding out her hand for me to shake.

I took it gently and adored the feeling of her tiny, soft hands. Not wanting to look like I was enjoying it too much, I retrieved my hand. Just as I was about to say something more, Maddie spoke up.

“Well if you guys aren’t busy later tonight, why don’t you come to a party a friend of ours is throwing?” She asked, looking at Seb more than myself.

Seb nodded smiling widely as she grabbed his arm. She scribbled the address and time on his arm with a sharpie. I looked to Kat and smiled weakly.

“I’ll see you tonight then,” I whispered, taking one last time into her endless oceans she calls eyes.

“Yeah, tonight,” she nodded and gave me a small grin.

It’s funny that only three months ago, I fell in love for the first time. As cliché as it may sound the moment her name rolled off of her lips, I knew I was in love. But the hurt that had been placed in my heart, didn’t let me get a chance to grip the feelings I had for Kat. The rain continued to shower down upon me. I’m more alone right now, than I’ve ever been in my life. I gripped the wet, rotting wood of the bench beneath me until my knuckles turned white. I looked more closely at the bench and saw her name carved into the fading wood. I traced it with my fingers before looking around me.

The leaves had already started changing colors and one by one they would fall. Soon all the trees will be stripped of their beauty and the empty months of winter will swallow me whole. The future looked bleak, but the past held the real pain. Traces of happiness filter through it. Footprints of passion lay scattered in the now cold sand. Every thought, every feeling, every little look I gave her was buried too deep inside me. I couldn’t reach them even if I wanted to. It was for the best. Every now and then, a memory rises from beneath the surface and I must re call it.

My eyes fluttered open only to gaze at the sleeping form of my queen. The covers were drawn around her small body. I leaned in to kiss her bare shoulder as she began to stir. She resided in a troublesome sleep that was there for her every night. She never told me why. She had secrets that only I knew existed, even if I didn’t know what they were. I knew they were there. Bottles of vodka, old notebooks and clothes were thrown carelessly all around the room. That’s how we lived. We would spend the day recuperating, let the alcohol and friends drain away the night and then leave a broken sleep for the morning.

But I was the one holding her in my arms every morning. I got to wake up to her perfect face and heavy heart. Staring into her empty eyes for hours, not speaking a word has become my favorite hobby. She stirred once more before coming back to reality. A gentle smile caressed her face as she looked up at me. I let my head droop slowly until I had reached her lips. We stayed inches apart from each other just letting our noses touch. She didn’t need words to greet the day and all I needed was the softness of her kiss. She closed the inches between us with one delicate motion. Every time our lips meet it’s a new experience for me, I savior every different taste.

As close as we seemed, she was always so far away from me. It was like she couldn’t leave the bleak world her mind had created for herself. Every time I watched her eyes fade into that place, my heart would be tangled in the little webs of hurt. The fact that I couldn’t protect her from everything caused the most pain. That’s how we spent most of the day. By nine o’clock we were off to meet everyone for yet another party. It was the last one of the summer, being it Labor Day weekend and all. The moment we walked in the door glasses of alcohol were shoved into our hands. My arm would stay around her waist for most of the night.

I was nearing a close to smashed faze as I retreated from the bathroom. I looked around the dizzy room until I saw Kat walk through the open door and out into the warm night air. I followed her and tried to wrap my arms around her waist from behind. She pulled away and turned around. I felt hurt and angry. Being drunk, all my feelings were enhanced to ten times more than I actually felt.

“When will you ever just lemme be close to you? I can never find you even when you’re right in front of me!” I managed to yell through a slurred speech. She remained silent, this only made me angrier.

“Why won’t you ever tell me what’s going on? I only want to protect you, but I don’t even know who you are!” I spoke, my words already full of hurt.

Even in my drunken state, I knew what I said hurt her more than it hurt me. For the first time since I met her, I watched a tear roll down her cheek.

“I’m sorry,” she whispered, before taking her leave.

I wanted to go after her, but I couldn’t. Some how I knew this was the end. I couldn’t do a damn thing to stop it.

She left that night, packed all of her things, got into her car and just left. I never had the chance to save her. I never had the chance to take a walk into the world that made her broken or battle the demons she felt so weak against. But worst of all, I never got to tell her I loved her. The one person I truly felt for drove right out of my life. I learned more about life during those three months than I ever had before. I learned of the best friends any one could have and the risks you take for them. That summer I studied love and its inner workings. I realized just how much one person can feel for another.

I know I’ll never love another person the way I loved Kat. I’ll never see the same beautifully broken face again or the always fading eyes. I got up from the bench and looked down at my completely soaked clothes as they clung to my body. I began to walk, unaware of my destination. Somehow I always end up at the beach we spent countless nights on. I always manage to hear that one song of ours drifting through the air. The rain stopped and for the last time, that song played.

“I love you.” I whispered to the sky as the lyrics encased my body.

Squeaky swings and tall grass
The longest shadows ever cast
The water’s warm and children swim
And we frolicked about in our summer skin

I don’t recall a single care
Just greenery and humid air
Then Labor day came and went
And we shed what was left of our summer skin

On the night you left I came over
And we peeled the freckles from our shoulders
Our brand new coats so flushed and pink
And I knew your heart I couldn’t win
Cause the seasons change was a conduit
And we left our love in our summer skin

Summer Skin [One Shot]


LaSalle, Canada

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Artist's Description

I half based this on the song Summer Skin by Death Cab for Cutie and the other half on my summer last year.
It was full of parties, lust and heartache.
I wrote this some time ago and am only now uploading it here.

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