020808 (1) seeing in colour

trish b

Joined July 2008

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it’s not real
it’s make believe
dare – deceive
but I’m not stupid
crazy – hah
but that’s different.

black
white
crisp, clean
absurd: extreme

my rules

defiance
compliance
liberation –

I have vision. I don’t see in colour. Or perhaps clearer to say I don’t feel in colour.

Undo opacity
become transparent…
translucent
as a compromise

black, white
perfectionistic extremes
define me
control me
overrule sentimentality
wreak havoc weave chaos web of destruction

I think in black or white

But I’m “high-functioning”. I understand my own failing. I blur my eyes to create this mythical greyscale

Then I realise it is, in fact, all in f*ing colour

I can see colour
But I can’t feel it
I don’t think in it
I take a metaphorical paintbrush everywhere I go to adjust the palette so I process “correctly”

who made the rules?

- sanity necessitates colour, so I guess I did

I know I can carry my paintbox to every challenge life throws at me. I know I can. Sometimes I don’t want to. I throw my paints out of the pram. I try running away – from myself – it takes you to the brink of life/death if you’re not careful. Sometimes I get tired of washing out my own paintbrushes, the weight of responsibility globbing together the fibres of my soul, just to keep myself going. I hate that. The easy is near impossible

On the good days, it is so magic I know it is worth it.

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