Recently, I realised that the middle of this month will be my birthday; and, I will be aged 49 years old. Usually, around the time of my date of birth; all of a sudden, I tend to feel ‘inspired’ to start drawing self-portraits; possibly, to record how old I do look outside/feel inside myself.
In fact, I actually went and brought 3 or 4 thick A5 sized sketchbooks; and, each sketchbook contains around 200 pages; my intention is that each book should get filled in with drawings relating to a different theme; such as, gallery drawings/still life drawings/maybe, even, street scenes/etc.
One of these books I decided will be devoted to storing just self-portraits, alone; so, after having completed filling up the whole entire sketchbook, I hope that both my self-portraiture skills/portraiture skills will be able to improve.
Technically speaking, I look at this work; and, I think to myself just how far away I am from being able to get in touch with ‘reality’; the hand/eye/brain co-ordination is very sorely lacking, indeed, I’m afraid!
Nevertheless, as usual, all I can say is ‘whenever you are aiming to achieve a particular goal; then, the one thing to bear in mind, no matter how many times you fail; is to never give up; just keep on trying…both praying and hoping that, eventually, you will be able to succeed!’
The medium felt really good to me. By which I mean to say, I’ve tried drawing, at least, 3 or 4 self-portraits inside of the same sketchbook using indelible pen: black/blue; and, something didn’t quite feel right?! This means that some mediums tend to ‘inspire’ you to use them a lot more than others; this is because there are just some mediums that you find you do vastly prefer using.
However, when I started using pencil, I seemed to feel a lot more self-confident; I think, because pencil is far softer; and, thus, if you go in really gentle, at first; when attempting to get the main proportions right; then, it’s possible to cover up any mistakes you’ve made by going in a lot darker, afterwards; thus, emphisizing lines/whilst de-emphasizing others which were all of your mistakes.
However, I still haven’t practicing using any rubber, yet; I think, that exercise will most probably come at some point, later on. The truth is I’m just far too lazy; much preferring to leave any mistakes in; than, bother taking enough time to go, and, quite patiently correct all of these; due to fearing I will be there all day/night long…both correcting, and, then, re-correcting…absolutely endlessly!