wish wish wish

That wounded faculty and palsied arm. Give in to it if you can remember how, if you can remember anything. If it’s there for you.
I’m sick, baby, frail and unferocious
This is the industrial malaise that I always suspected was in existence and tried to get in scrabble, what I’ve been preparing for all these years. While a girl weeps in the corner, and weeps and weeps the whole train ride, she just keeps going.
The only way, I need to pick and turn what seeps from my hands. If I could just happen only just happen to change something that got broken or was skewed as it grew.
And I could walk into a room without smelling every insistence like a group of office secretaries.
Spitting every word, snarl not strong enough.
Fragile, her heartbeat under my palm in a small square of reflected sunlight.
She used to take my chin in her hand and kiss me. Just like that. A white lie, a casual promise, a startling off hand benediction.
Hey I know there’s more to this.
And now I can feel it, think maybe I took too much a hand grasping and grasping in the dark. I feel so weak, I think I always was, spinifex in the Black Forest, kerosene on a summer night, warm but inappropriate – round hole, metacarpal peg.
A huge industrial machine crouched in a humming room; scent of motor oil and burning hair pressing at the walls. Like a slow burrowing bullet. Soaked earth with roots twisted through it and a scattering of calluses. In the corner an arrangement of human fingernails mapping an unimportant constellation.
This isn’t a fever or a dream the photographs are pinned to the sticky walls, their edges are curled.
There’s a pair of old shoes by the door and the sign IS faded.
There is a baby with a scratched bruise on its forehead and there
IS an elderly woman with a floral print dress reading a book with her expression compressed, like it’s an obituary.

I have to wait. Just a few weeks, a few million seconds, if that’s enough.
It’s moving slow but heavy (radius and inertia and depth) like an oil tanker or a tectonic plate. Hurts too much.
I’m too tired.
I lost the keys.
I thought I had them for a while but they turned out to be the wrong ones.
I was wrong again.
I have no will.

Come on, give me the crook of your arm to cry on.

I’ll tell you about the menagerie of moons and press your hand between my hands and wishwishwish.

Paul D Robertson

wish wish wish


Perth, Australia

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last written words before i quit normal work for poverty and, fortunately, art.

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