Pleasure and pain.

No. This is not about something naughty.
I just want to tell you that I’m starting to feel better and that worries me.
At this stage (Perhaps the doctor knows better), I suspect that my subconscious took over and gave me such a hard time these last few days.
Because it’s now happened before.
In the house which I have now taken over (Mother passed away, four years ago. Father in the retirement village, in high care.) there are seven of my framed paintings on the walls, since a few hours ago.

The worry is that they match the (terribly out-of-date, 1970s) wall paper.
None of them sold at the 38th Annual Oyster Bay Art and Craft Festival.
Which, art teacher Melissa, thought could happen because all five that I entered were of people, whom the visitors might not know.

I’m so pleased to still have them. (Although, as Polly, in Fawlty Towers says, in the episode which I watch, over and over: I can do with the money!)

There was also, briefly a funny Australian T.V. series in which a beloved actress used to say that she was having pain, where she should have pleasure, or something like that.

I’ve had such sharp stomach pains!! And as I rushed to bend over and do up shoelaces, last Friday night, cause such a sharp back pain!!
And now they’re easing.
Entering my paintings in the festival. Seeing how they stacked up against the others. Wondering what people would think of them. Having in three of them younger versions of girls, who might very well still live near-by and see themselves hung.
Walking around the school premises, one suburb away from where I taught eleven years and wondering whether I’d meet ex-pupils or parents of ex-pupils. All that uncertainty, that I couldn’t control seems to have invaded me and now seems to have had its fun and has almost left.
Come to think of it, it is a bit masochistic!
Will I do it again, next year? Probably not.

I’m dreaming of having enough paintings by then, painted in an ever improving fashion to display them together somewhere, to show the world.
Has it been worthwhile?
I certainly did take in the works that surrounded mine. That will influence me.
I did enjoy putting the pictures that I took on Redbubble.
Aldoende leert men! my mother loved to say.
(One learns from doing.)
So glad the cramps are easing!!
I think I’ll have another coffee.
(Doctor said I shouldn’t.)
Bayleaves_, Gerda advised (_from The Hague).
The world’s so small now!
It’s midnight.
Must get some sleep and start another painting, tomorrow morning, to work on in Hazelhurst, in the afternoon!

Pleasure and pain.


Ramsgate Beach, Australia

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Self-control. Rationalising. Nothing bad happened. Why did it hurt so much?



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