Joined February 2008

I have out walked the furthest city lights~ Robert Frost / I am a woman , Mother, sister, daughter, granddaughter, niece, cousin and...

Mind Freak....

I am so emotional today and filled with so much emotion that I am not sure what to do with it…… I have been alone in the hospital the past two days pritty much and I at these times feel like I am invisible to my family .. I have seen my kids once since comming in … I am walking the halls like a fool and reading three books at one time and knitting as well as watching tv but yet my brain is starting to consume my happiness … its getting dark and my roommate is rich and snottty and has her whole dang family in and out of the room….. I am putting headphones on and trying to drown out the noise but I have NO tunes …… FRUSTRATED …… I am so frustrated … I had my scan at 11 today and have yet to heard a thing about it …. I can’t eat or drink and its going on the third day of this ……. My mind is starting to play games with me and I am starting to get scared that this is something bad…… I am so tired … so weak and each day it gets worse …..I am sorry for babbling but I have to get this stuff out of my head or I will cry and cry and that just makes me sick … so ….. please dont’ read if you get sick of me …. I know that others have it worse then me physically and all but I guess I just am lonely and just wanting a hand to hold….. ty my friends here for your love …. You all are like family to me and I love you all so much !!!!! (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

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