It has been sometime since I have been here. My words are slowly coming back into my thoughts , randomly / poetically ….. so I decided it was time to come back into my “bubble”, try to see if I can (once again) express myself through my poetry or my journal.

“I LOVE YOU AUSTIN < MY BABY BOY”:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVq0L4kkpKM&amp;...

My son , Austin, passed away 9-11-10 at 12:40am… My son, my heart was only 15 …….. NOTHING will EVER be right in my life my heart my soul again until I am with him once more. His pictures will be my profile pic forever … He will be laid to rest on 9-17-10 please smile up to the sky that day to him and throw him the peace sign …….. that would make him smile and I so just need to feel him be ok …………………………….

IN HONOR OF Written and performed by three of my sons friends CHANNEL 5 DANCE PARTY …

  • Age: 44
  • Joined: February 2008

Journal

Soul Searching

I am not sure I can go through losing another person who was important in my life, whom I love. / My heart aches for his Mother who is right now, as I type, sitting next to her sons hospice bed trying to hold it together and all inside till she is alone or out of earshot of her son and grandchildren. I am a whirlwind of emotions … I am feeling all the emotions of his family , mixed with …
Posted 12 months – 2 comments

Wide open spaces...

Talked to my mom for the first time is six months yesterday…. yeah its that family BS that has kept me from speaking to her and pretty much kept me to myself for the past four years. I am tired of wasting my time trying to figure out who and what is the truth. I play the role of peace keeper everywhere I go since I can remember , I don’t have that energy anymore. / I am so filled w…
Posted over 1 year – 6 comments

Get over myself

“There are thousands out there that have it worse than you.” / I have heard that statement from my Mother so many times in my life that it has become my motto. No matter what has happened , that is what I hear and repeat to myself as I go through life and all that comes with it. That statement was a great motivator in some situations and still seems to be something that keeps me fro…
Posted over 1 year – 4 comments

Like leaves in Fall Breezes

Swirling … swirling … swirling / My thoughts are spinning most of the time , have been that way for as long as I can remember. I look back at how things in life have happened, when they have happened ….. even I can’t believe that those “things” have happened ! For me to talk about them( with that in my mind ) makes it harder to start… but I want to, y…
Posted over 1 year – 5 comments
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