I Am
In my darkest days
I play the villian
With a touch of tragedy
And an air of ego
I submit to the unrelenting pull
Of the whisper in my head
That voice that is so soft
So sweet
So poisonous
Caressing my thoughts
Usurping my will
I become a destroyer
Of carefully crafted lives
My own included
I wrap myself in shadow
To hide from the light
I bend reality
With the chemicals I use
Anything is nothing
When everything is what I’ve lost
And yet…
In my brightest hours
I play the hero
A sympathetic ear
To all the sorrow
That plagues a soul
I selflessly sacrifice
For what is right
Hanging on
To ideals that seem outdated
To standards
That feel unreachable
I am
Sadness
Heartache
Pain
Sorrow
I am
Hope
Darkness and light
The duality of humanity
This expression of me
Artist's Description
I have no freakin idea where this came from… I sat down to write with no clear picture and this is what came out. It actually sounds a tad bit arrogant to me.
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Artwork Comments
I become a destroyer
Of carefully crafted lives
My own included
Heyyy, yeah, I recognize this. Damn, I wish I could just sit down and this kinda stuff would flow from my fingertips!!!
Thanks dg, last I checked the stuff that flows from your fingertips is pretty amazing. Such a flatterer. Thanks for reading.
Darkness and light
The duality of humanity
This expression of me
It is in us all Matt. We are all capable of anything. If it were not for the choices we make, we would be identical automotons. Yes, some of those choices are bad ones. You have made both, and struggle with the consequences.
This, to me, shares the angst of where we are when we find ourselves between the two.
Thanks for the feedback jc, and the fave, much appreciated.
I become a destroyer
Of carefully crafted lives
My own included
Heyyy, yeah, I recognize this. Damn, I wish I could just sit down and this kinda stuff would flow from my fingertips!!!
Oh ferkit, please delete one!
great writing mtda, having two sides makes life difficult, although that said would having one merged make them any better? or would it be too confusing? thanks for provoking interesting questions
Thanks beast, I’m not sure the two are ever able to co-relate without making a mess of one’s head.
Absolutely Fantastic Hooney.
Hooney thanks you for reading.
darkness and light is in us all whether we want to admit it or not. Arrogant? i don;t think so.. just you and life and thank you for sharing
Thank you S, for reading and the feedback. Looking at this now, it doesn’t seem arrogant but last night it felt that way…
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As in wow this is horribly bad? Just kidding, thank you for reading.
Darkness and light are part of each of us – our lower selves and our higher selves constantly wrestling for control. And all of us live with the consequences of having chosen to listen to that darker side more often than we should have. So very human Matt – the battle to be our best selves. Thought provoking and powerful piece!
Thanks lianne, I’m glad that you took all of that from this, it was what this piece was meant to explore. But again, it was written quickly and I wasn’t sure how well that came across to the reader.
You have captured what it means to be human so perfectly in this. Whatever the details of the struggle, each of us fights this battle. Few of us have the talent to express the paradox within, and fewer still manage to express it nearly as well as you have. This rang so true, my “inner editor” didn’t even lift his blue pencil. ;-)
It is this paradox that fascinates me about humanity. More to come on that I’m sure. Thank you for reading and the fave.