In the Moment: Grace Realized

I never knew I could learn so much about myself in a single moment or that holding my Nana’s hand as she took her last breath would lead me where it has. Somehow during the last 2 hours of her life, I found serenity and Grace in the moment of her last breath. I had been looking for serenity and inner peace for a long time; learning Grace was just a bonus. Being in the moment when my nana passed, peacefulness enveloped me. I knew it was going to be OK and even now 12 months later I know it is going to be OK.

She was a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a grandmother and a great grandmother. She was a friend, a believer in God, a member of the parish, she was a Podiatrist. She loved to swim in the icy waters of Cape Cod well into late October. She was the most positive, often stoic person I have even known. Strength in silence, power in presence. She was many things to many people and multi-faceted in her own being, but nothing describes her more than this one word. Grace.

She was Grace. She had the grace of eternal beauty. She had the gracefulness of a blue bird on the thinnest of branches. Grace in her words, and in the purity of her thoughts.

My Nana taught me more while she was alive than I could ever clearly articulate in words but it is what she taught me in the final hours and in the moment of her death that will stay with me forever. She taught me that it is OK to let go. When the time is right and all of the details have been taken care of, when you have said goodbye, and set your sights on the future it is OK to let go.

For her, at 93, she waited until her family was around her and she said goodbyes. Two hours later with just me by her side, within a moment between 9:13 pm and 9:14 pm she gracefully said goodbye to this world and moved onto her next journey. Being the religious person that she was I have no doubt that her next journey has just begun.

Life is a journey, a trip filled with hellos and goodbyes, all too often we say hello too readily and goodbye not readily enough. We are always looking for more, yet often never discarding what we are done with. As I held my Nana’s hand at 9:14 pm on January 31, 2007 I realized that I need to say goodbye not only to my Nana but to my own internal struggles with myself, accept more, fight less, be graceful about it – all the way my Nana did with death. I need to learn to be in the moment, every moment, this exact moment because we never know when our moment will be over. It could happen in an instant.

In the Moment: Grace Realized

mkdsmall

Joined January 2008

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