Fuse

my dad always had a short fuse
he always hated to lose
but that night
the last fight
he lost mom and i
in a blink of the eye.

dad was a drinker
i was the thinker
i thought about
when we’d get out
in the open
i was hoping…

that i didn’t have to see
the bruises and the bloody
mess on the kitchen floor
his scream for more
asking me to fight
to teach me right.

his scream
haunted dream
i cannot sleep
fist at my feet
begging and pleading
my heart faintly beating.

he would beg for forgiveness
i remember the bloody mess
on the kitchen floor
watching more
blood and tears
his haunting fears…

my soul and my heart
which he had ripped apart
the first time he hit
called me a piece of shit
called me worthless
and the bloody mess.

his eye
helps deny
the chance
my hand
shakes
while my heart
breaks.

it first happened on june sixth
help me, i plead the fifth
to just get me out with her
but then, i am hit, blur
my thought
i fought…

him with my fists
shaking i missed
but then i thought of my mother
and then i jab and then another
he goes down
i run around…

the kitchen counter for safety
from the bloody
mess on the floor
he asks for more
and i said no
and black it go.

i woke up in my room
it was a quarter after noon
mother in the kitchen
him just bitching
i hear her scream
please be a dream…

it’s not
the spot
is red
i’m dead
if i move one step
i hold in my breath…

i grab the knive and run
“Come and get your fun…”
i hide in the closet
i turn on the faucet
in the bathroom to fool
him, then i stab, the pool…

of blood grows and stains
the carpet and my brains
i killed the monster under my bed
for once, then, he’s finally dead
and my mother is safe in my arms
no more pain, no more alarms.

Fuse

Misunderstood24

Albany, United States

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