The drowning man

as i made my rounds, i heard the screams. not really knowing where they came from. i hear them clearer now, so i grab my phone and call 911 ! my steps quicken as i reach the fence. behind those doors i will change, not knowing what i will find? there he is lying on the botom of a 12 foot pool!! as the 3 elderly poeple look to me as a savoir or something like that. so i toss my cell phone and my eyeglassess as i jump into a pool of water. to far from him, though i cannot tell my eyes are as blind as me is out of breathe. i go under and feel his hand, whats happends next still sits in my mind today. i dont bring him up with me! did i freeze? i go up for air leaving this man below. i go back down and again whats happens? i come back up with no man! know i have nothing left inside me to go down one more time!!! the women are screaming that the man wont live I need to get him NOW!!! the third time isnt the charm as i fail again!!! thank goodness someone else arrives and on thier first attempt pull him out!!! 7-10 minutes under water this man, with an angel on his shoulder survives and is alright and healthy!! but as for me the man who failed his fellow man in a time of need, i drowned that day and havent been pulled out of that water since. some people said " you tried" !! that is what you tell an 8 year old after they strike out in little league baseball not to a man who was asked by this stranger to save him….there isnt a week that goes by that i dont look at that fence and no what lies behind it and makes me think of my failure…

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