The Struggle I've Been Through

Greetings everyone who watches me, how ya all doing out there? Look, I owe ya all an explanation and an apology for not commenting or even being around here lately….life sometimes throws us some really big curve balls and well, March was of no exception at all. My health has really gotten pretty crappy and well, things in my personal life pretty much crumpled by the wayside with a lotta dreams I had….so it has been a very trying and stressful last month for me. What little time I have had, I have tried to get out and shoot some….though the last few times was odd…for once, I really didn’t feel like shooting when I was out clicking the shutter. I simply couldn’t relax my body, soul, & mind like I usually can. I would sit there and try to take a shot and my hands would just start shaking from being so stressed out :(I am slowly picking up the pieces though, but it is going well, just that, slowly. I am starting to find myself again and have learned a lot about myself, who I am, and how I stand as a person. I have been through a lot….and at times I just felt like disappearing and moving to somewhere in the middle of Wyoming. I came damn close to doing just that. If it wasn’t for my health, I probably would have. To those of you who watch me on DA, some of ya might be able to guess what is going on in some respect as you are a lot more in the ‘know’ than RB folks…and you might be right. Just please don’t note me asking me what’s up…I really find it hard to discuss and even talk about at this point. I just need healing…badly.So that is why I haven’t really been around much….sorry to bore ya all with this journal entry, but I figured ya all had a right to know. Those of you whom noted me asking me where I was at, thank you…just for caring :) I do have a lotta shots to share with ya all and if I inundate your message center, please forgive me. But I am hoping that these latest images might sell well…we’ll see I suppose.Anyways, just thanks for listening, I feel better since writing this.

Now off to find my little piece of heaven, nirvana, tranquility, and serenity…somewhere. Where that journey takes me…I do not know…..
—-John

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