Don't Say Goodbye

I thought my world was going to end the day you crushed my “perfect” little world. But was it ever really perfect or did I just not want to accept the fate that was to come? Did I just ignore the signs, hoping that everything would just stay perfect, stay the way that I wanted it to? We can’t have everything that we want, and I think I thought I could. I took for granted something that I shouldn’t have, I assumed everything was great when it wasn’t. Something wasn’t right with us, but I just washed it away with a flip of my hand. I deserve what came to me and now I’m going to take it with a smile. I don’t even know why, I should be more upset than I am. It seems as though I’ve cried away all the tears and now I feel peace. Is it wrong that I feel peace? That I feel as though, despite the null pain at the pit of my stomach, it’s all going to be okay? You may be gone, out of my life, but I have so many things in the future, that its going to be okay? God pulled me up, and I’m ready to move on. It’s time for me to look up at the sky, smile and just move on. I can’t believe that I feel peace, I almost feel guilty for this peace. But God works in amazing ways. I can’t go on without His love. I thought I couldn’t face this world on my own, that I needed someone by my side. And it’s true, I do, but its God’s love that I need. I won’t be facing this world on my own, I’m going to have God in my life and that’s all I need. But on the other hand, I am so thankful for all the amazing friends who rushed to my side just when I needed them. They proved to me that I have made some amazing choices in my life-picking them as my friends. This was not the end for me, but the beginning. I have seen what was wrong in my life and now I know how to fix it. If we are always changing, then we are always growing, right? I feel as though I have saved my own life by realizing all the things I was doing, how I was probably hurting the people I care about so much. I hope you know that I never wanted to hurt you. I know you didn’t want to hurt me either, although I thought that at first. I don’t miss how things used to be anymore. I’m not saying good-bye to the past, just allowing myself to move forward. It’s not the end for you and I, we will be friends and things will be better. I’m not saying good-bye to anyone, it hurts, but im giving you my word that I want you to always be happy. If you aren’t happy, than I shouldn’t be happy either. I have no more bitter thoughts, although I can’t promise there won’t be bitter moments. We aren’t saying good-bye, I don’t wanna have to leave you right now. But we have to say good-bye to a part of our lives that is over. Yesterday, we were a couple. Today we are just good friends. Who knows what tomorrow could bring. We might find our place in this world someday, but for now it seems as though that is no longer true. Just remember that this isn’t good-bye. I don’t ever wanna have to say good-bye.

Don't Say Goodbye

johnsonKa21

Joined March 2008

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