It's been a while

since I’ve actually managed to create anything of substance or good enough to be able to post on the Bubble. I’ve still be visiting the Bubble, and trying to take a lot of inspiration from you all, but I have a total creative block! I can’t write, I can’t even put together a photo that I’m happy enough with to share.

My life has been a bit hectic lately, and a lot has been going on.
Three years ago I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. it’s a disease I now have to live with for the rest of my life. It’s one of these things that doesn’t have a cure, and no matter how much I would love for there to be, I can’t see it happening in my lifetime… hmm there goes the negativity just swirling around in my brain! LOL.
Anyway – I’ve never really dealt with it on an emotional level. I’ve just got on with my life, and known it was there.

Until recently. Four months ago, I had to make the choice to go on the medication. Not to cure me mind you, but to help slow down the progression of this cursed disease. So instead of having an attack a year, I might have one every three or four. Good odds, huh!
But also with that, has been the decision to have or not have children. By going on the medication, I have been told that having children once on it is not really advised. So it’s one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make.

So with all that in mind, I have had to deal with the whole diagnosis, being tired a lot of the time, and just the emotional wreckage which has been me.
I realise that everyone has their own problems, but my aim now is to make people aware of the disease and the toll of MS on people’s lives. Not just the people who have it, but also the family and friends.

My creative energy has disappeared while I have been dealing with this, and now I am feeling a bit happier, and a bit stronger with it, I am going to buy myself a new DSLR sometime in the New Year, and get back onto the wagon! :-)

The Bubble has been one of my life savers over the past couple of months. The stories I have read of other people’s struggles and battles with different things, have helped me realise there are other people out there going through other struggles, and it’s not ALL about me (well almost anyway – hehe). And the art, photo’s and poetry people have been posting has also lifted my spirits and kept me going.
So thank you Red Bubble, and all of you brilliant artists out there for unconsciously helping me through it.


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