JaneAParis

Joined February 2008

I have a deep love for expressionism – ‘Expressionistic artist sought to develop pictorial forms which would express their innermost...

Email to Claire

From Mommy:
Have you read my red bubble page? Did you read my Letter To My Children? Did you read my last email to you, it is on my red bubble page too…I love you and Mitchell. I need health care and medicine. If they don’t provide medical care for me I will become more ill and die. You don’t deserve this and neither do I, or Mitchell too. I am suffering very much. Very much.

I miss you very much and Mitchell very much. It is very hard for me not to be bitter. I have been made to suffer greatly and I have been seperated from you and Mitchell for no good reason, just because we can. That is their excuse for all the bad things they do to me, it is always just because they can, because according to them I have no rights forever.

From Claire:
Hey mommy just wanted to tell you that me and Mitchell love you very much! I will send you a longer message later! bye!

-love claire

From Mommy:
Do you read what I write on red bubble in my journal, down at the bottom of the page, and My Letter to My Children, and other things I have written as well. I want you and Mitchell to read these things. I want you to know the truth about how I have and am being treated because I am being hurt, and when I am hurt you both are hurt. I love you very much, and Mitchell too. It is very wrong for your father to leave me like this…period. I am always thinking of you and I hope that school is going well for you, I love you so much, and Mitchy too. Love Always and Forever, Eternally and Unconditionally, Mommy.

From Claire:
I’m going to need to go on to red bubble soon so that I can read that. Right now it is too late. I always check my email right before I go to bed and dad is yelling at me to turn the computer off so I’ll talk to you later! I love you!
-claire

From Mommy:
I love you too Claire, and Mitchell too. You need to read what I have written. Your daddy, the police and a bunch of other people are keeping me in a cage. As long as I am kept in a cage I can be nothing for you. I need my health. I want you to know the truth because I love you. They are hurting me very bad because they have left an infection in my body and they deny me medical care, this is not right. They know exactly what they are doing, they are doing it very intentionally. Read what I have written on my red bubble page. I am very angry that I cannot be strong and healthy for you and Mitchell. I am very angry that I am not being allowed to be a person. I am very angry that I have been separated from you and therefore cannot truly love you or Mitchell. I am very angry that people will not stop harassing me, playing mind games, and abusing me. I am very angry that because I have to live in fear and sickness, not only does it cost me, but it cost you and Mitchell as well. I am angry for you as well as myself. I love you very much. I have no idea where the future is heading right now…all I know for certain is that I need my health and I need rights. Without these two things I can be nothing to you or Mitchell. I do not know where I will end up in order to finally find these things I need, not want. I can not truly love you or Mitchell if I am not free, and I am not free. I am being held in never-ending bondage (with my health, employment, and many other things), by people who lie, play games, and manipulate. These people have a choice, (whereas I do not, because I am being held in bondage), they can do the right thing and set me free and make good things happen or they can do what they always do, keep me in bondage and make me live in fear, forced to make decisions based on coercion, intimidation, and fear – So that they make bad things happen and bad things become the reality of the future.

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