Joined February 2008

I have a deep love for expressionism – ‘Expressionistic artist sought to develop pictorial forms which would express their innermost...

Email to Claire

To Claire -
Hi – I love you today and Mitchell too. I miss you both very much. Love Mommy. I feel far away from you and sad. I know that things will never be the same, and I have no idea what the future will bring, all I know is I do not want to be here anymore but I have no choice because I am being kept in bondage, they will not put me back together and they will not stop picking on me. I am very tired of them - and of having to live in fear.

Hey mommy! I love you too! Don’t feel far away from us and sad because of it. We will always love you no matter how far away from us you are. You’re our mommy. Always and forever. And nothing is going to change that. I love you soooooooooooo much! I’ll talk to you again soon!

love claire

I love you too, I want them to put me together so the bugs don’t crawl in and on me anymore and then I want to go some place far away where people don’t need to torture me every five ‘f’ minutes. You have nothing to do with any of this, your just an innocent victim and so am I. They abuse me and then constantly turn around and blame me for their abusive behavior. They won’t get out of my face or space and they offer no fair options. I hate them. I love you and Mitchell, but I have doubts about what I will ever be able to be for you because the filthy predators that prey on me never leave me alone, so what can I ever give you? They twist the truth no matter what I do and they feed on me constantly, I am so tired of their dirty stinking games that they seem to find so amusing and entertaining - at my expense and yours and Mitchells and your fathers. They never get out of my space. They do not belong in my space - they are CRAP, they are driving me insane with their stupid minds games and threats and controls. They make everything impossible and they make it very difficult to deal with my life. It should not be this way. Most people function fine if they are allowed to, but I am not and this is the truth. They ruin everything I do or make it impossible. They are SHIT. God I hate them, I am so tired of them and their dirtyness and their threats and their games. I and you and Mitchell deserve much better. There is a new nurse here, of course her name is Janice. Get it. Jane- Ice. Because I am not putting out. They constantly sexually abuse me and try to make everything in my life revolve around my sexuality. They play these little games all the time for me Claire, they never plan on treating me any other way. And I have serious doubts that they really plan on healing the problem in my body so I am dying. So how can I ever be anything to you or Mitchell. If I am kept ill and constantly abused with mind games, disrespect, and sexual abuse there is no way that I will ever be able to give anything to you or Mitchell. That is a fact. That is a fact that I, you and Mitchell don’t deserve.

She does not really understand and she should not have to - she is an innocent and when I am preyed upon she is preyed upon as well -

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