I Remember!!

i remember waiting ,day after day for you to call.sometimes not even going outside to play,i never wanted to risk missing that call.I’d write down everything i wanted to say to you just incase i forgot something.Watching t.v with the phone next to me,mad when someone else wanted to use it!finally after to waiting all day,you managed to pick up the phone and call !
i remember being so excited as soon as i heard your voice,“hey phathead,what you doin?”talking to you made my day no matter what!even the short and sweet conversations.i jus hated the next few days.those days i woke up excited cause daddy promised to pick me up.today was a movie,or the park,sometimes they were promises of going to grandmas.it didnt matter where,i was gonna be with dad today!then pick up time became later and later until it disappeared!!!
i remember sitting in the window and not being able to see past the tears in my eyes.i remember that clogged up feeling that stayed in my throat for hours! i’d be mad at everyone but you for some reason.it was always moms fualt.she probaly said something to make you mad and thats why you didnt come!i mean,it could’ve been the mailmans fualt before i’d blame you for not coming.honestly,to this day i couldn’t tell you why that was.but i do know that in my little seven or eight year old mind,daddy could do no wrong!!!
then i grew up and somehow there became years in between our phone conversations.and i stopped thinking about you.when i learned who you truly were i had no room for you in my mind! i lost the ability to cry in your honor.i realized how unworthy you were of my sweet tears.my spirit will never be in disaray for you again!!
i remember the moment i realized it.when i sat down to write and the words flowed from my soul.i will always love you and i do forgive you! but now im moving on and im taking my heart with me!when your ready i’ll be somewhere close.hopefully you’ll find me this time!!!!
I REMEMBER………

-tiara janay
oxoxoxoxo

I Remember!!

janay0423

Las Vegas, United States

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i grew up without my father,actually im still growing up without him…i dont kno how to deal with that,so i do what i kno best,write about it…..hope u like…

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