the letter i just red

the smoke of my blunt forms your face,
your eyes are looking at me,
and for years its been gone..
i almost forgot that look,
i blow it away,
and now your burning my mind.
its starting to rain and im running,
im all alone, and im screaming..
trying to drain the flood u started in my head
i might be drownding
so i just keep running,and running.
and i go to my place, in the hills
i watch the stars for awhile,
and no one knows im here.
my mind wonders through the past six years
i cant help but not to fantasize..
about all the endless nights,
when you traced my body with your tounge,
making me feel my existence in a way that was new.
god i can still feel the way, u did that thing,
to make me… to make me feel good.
i come back to , and start the walk back,
its a mile or two.
the other day i stared at the enveloped adressed to me,
endlessly, wondering what kind of news this might be
its been nearly two years since i last tried..
one of the many attempts you shot down
so why now?
i couldnt possibly imagine what u had to say,
and with that i tore the envelope, sliding out your words into my hands.
and in one breath i red.
how are u doin, and how have things been,
its been a while since we have seen….
and wait.. whats this? u want me to call u?
what will that lead to..
and of cource thats all ive been able to think about
and you dont know how many times ive red your letter over and over
in disbelief, that you actually wrote me.
and so now its up to me.
to pick up a pen, and break the writers block that has done so well
for so long to keep my words from flowing
and like that my hand starts floating in rythem
filling up the page with all ive had to say
finally u listen
to the last six years.
theres love, theres tears,
theres pain, and some shame..
but its what u need to hear..
and all this was your cause,
and you, really are my fear..
but in the end,
i want u here. and that call u want, i will do.
and how should i end this,
love raelynn?

the letter i just red

JaMaKiNmEcRaZy

Joined January 2009

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true story.

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