Estrangement

I’m going now – I’m ready. And have you accepted my apology?
He left before I could see him smile
After a while the memory will fade and a new age of obsessions will tide me over.
And over is the state of all my affairs.
“Take time,” he said, “to smell the roses.”
I colorfully painted my psychosis to not appear so bad.
And time revealed that all I had was an indecisive expression of an agonizing depression that I couldn’t understand the sadness in her glance – more like a glare…a blank emotionless stare.
Where did my teachings inspire me to be leaving – I couldn’t stay.
I mean, what could I say?
Snap out of it.
Snap out of it!
Snap out of it?
“What meaningless shit,” she muttered to me
And what could I be?
I was a brother only by birth
I didn’t know what it was worth to be an inspiration.
There was no indication of my purpose for moving in
And just as quickly and without a doubt – I found me moving out.
Can you tell me what it’s about? Why the dysfunction?
Why the unintentional excuse or ignoring the abuse?
How to become a recluse and make me watch you disintegrate
I hate what he had done to you!
She couldn’t understand – I offered my hand and…
On the last leg of trust I must have crumbled
I gave her no reason to miss me.
He no longer wanted to kiss me.
I’ll be alone at the needle exchange learning to lie among perfect strangers.
There is no danger that I could perceive
Just leave me here alone to grieve
It’s been years since you have seen me. Do you know what I wanted to be…
What I became?

Estrangement

Itsmikel25

Eureka, United States

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I have walked many roads in my life. Some of which, I’m not so proud of; though none of which I am ashamed. It is only through having journeyed through many roads less traveled that I have discovered a serenity that is worth more than any amount of wealth.

Mikel Shane

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