A New Me!

This life that I lead
Is hiding everything I feel inside
Not showing my true potential
And holding me back

I can’t do this anymore
I don’t want to move home
But I am going to have to
I can’t be dependent on others

I am going to start all over
And begin on a new slate
Hopefully this time I’ll get it right
And not fuck up again

Like so many times before
I have screwed myself over once again
And have to move back to the place I hate
But what am I to do?

I can’t stay here
Even thought I am so happy
I must go
And leave everything behind!

I am so ashamed of myself
I am such a failure
Maybe my father was right
I should’ve killed myself when I was younger

Don’t have pity on me
I don’t deserve your sympathy
Don’t cry for me
I am not worth it

I am not going anywhere in life
I will not achieve greatness
Like everyone wants me to
I just want to end it all now

Tonight this ends
This life I am living
Is nothing but a worthless soul
But not for much longer

This is all about to change
My life is starting over now
And no one is going to stop me
I am starting over now

I’m sorry for all of those
That love me now
But I have to do this
I am not leaving anything behind

Nothing in my life is significant at all
I am just a boring person
Just GARRICK that’s it!
Nothing more nothing less

This may be depressing for some
But it is not meant to be
I am making a change
And just letting you all know

I am also giving you the reasons for it
Not just going to say goodbye
To the old me
I am going to give it a funeral!

Say goodbye to the Garrick of the past
And look towards the future
The new ME is coming
And it is going to be different

Going to fight for the rights
Of everyone
That way we are all equal
Not just some but all

This is just a preview
Not going to tell you everything
But that is part of it
I’m going to be a different person

So say goodbye to the Garrick you know
And prepare for the new one to come out
To come and save the world

A New Me!

Garrick Smillie

Las Vegas, United States

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