look at me please
what am i doing to myself?
this way of life is only a tease
i never wanted any help.
get the fuck away from me please
i cant help it any longer
this anger inside has grown too much.
over the years my resentments grown stronger
pushing me away from your touch
cant you see it was you
that stirred my shit deep inside?
dont try to pull me through
just find me a place to hide.
i wish i could apologize
for the things that i do
but its time that you realize
you’ve scarred me permanently blue.
so dont try to analyze me
from me theres nothing more you can take.
i only let you know what i want you to see
my heart again you wont break.
again i was your angel for a short time
how could i mistake this as real?
feels like something different this time
maybe because its my heart i conceal.
bitch you’ve stepped out on my too many times
i wont let this happen to me again
and im not about to tell you how i feel anymore
it’ll only add more fuel to your fire.
why am i still here?\
in the middle of nowhere?
why do i let you push me around?
i thought i was better than this
i should never left myself vulnerable
you’ve cut me deeep enough in the past.
and now here i am handing you a knife.
you never cared what i wanted
if you did you’d have left me alone.
instead you drag me back across the pain
fuck you and your plan to make things right
i see now maybe i should never have called back
if only i knew then what i know now
i could be me right now.
but no you rather mess me up
and ask me whats wrong
or say calm down.
well i cant calm down
my rage burns hot
and it wants to swallow you whole
i dont give a shit anymore about anything
and i owe it all up to you.
thats all that you left me with
now you’ve set me off without saying a word
but it doesnt matter because your actions speak louder
you can run downstairs all you want
it’ll always be black up here.
i wouldnt have you 100%.
i never did. maybe if i jumped out a 5 story window
you might show me love
but until then even though words are coming out
you’re not saying much.
like i said though
it doesnt matter anymore
i wont let this happen
you played with me so much when we were young
i cant tell the difference now.
i dont even want to hear your opinion
most likely its a lie but i’ll never really know
im sorry if these words hurt
but just think, it’ll never be as painful
as being your angel.
i dont understand this
it felt so good to say those hateful things
and yet somehow im feeling guilty.
thats how bad you fucked me up inside
to the point i cant tell how i feel anymore.
all i know is that i only wanted to be with you,
not knowing i was your guinea pig in an experiment
to see how much shit you can put me through
Is that what you expected?
did you think you could push me around and i wouldnt fight back?
guess what, your wrong
and you’ll be lucky if theres anything left of you when im done.
but no i wont hurt you
i would never do you as you did me.
i just want you to feel the wrath
from the fire you breathed into me.


robert Fortune

Putnam, United States

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again this is my paranoia getting the best of me, twisting my perception of reality

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