If I give you a little bit of rope, you’ll hang yourself.

It will be my fault, because I’m your mother.

Sometimes you tie pretty knots in the rope and impress me but sometimes things get so tangled up that I sit here for hours and hours trying to untie it all, getting frustrated and letting my tears flow into the fibres.

It makes it worse because the knots get all wet, sticking together and everyone gives up.

There are pieces of rope thrown in corners and under your bed beside the defiance and the new strength you’ve found as a teenager.

I consider taking the pieces and tying it all together.

Perhaps I’ll hang myself with it and dangle above you just to show you how it’s done, how it looks and how ridiculous this strangling of our relationship is.

You don’t scare me with your threats and your acidic mouth but it saddens me when you give up and tie yourself like that.

You’re blue around the mouth and the rope is too tight and you need to loosen up and spit it out and sit and talk and let me build you a swing with the rope.

But it’s too late, you don’t sit on swings anymore and you’ve forgotten how you liked to swing so high in the park and laugh and lean back and frighten me.

You’ve forgotten how we skipped rope and played quoits and dangled over the creek before dropping in when we were too heavy with laughter.

But I haven’t.

I’ve seen you at your worst and I’ve seen you at your best and I know every little trick knot you tie and I’m sick of it already but I know there’s a long way to go before we make it up the mountain with these tiny pieces of rope we have.

I miss you, even though you’re here beside me and I’m so tempted to tie the rope around your waist and then to myself, but I have to cut it and let you go and make mistakes and be your own person with your own journey.

I hope I survive it too.

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PJ Ryan

Melbourne, Australia

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