distracting myself while i kill my time
waiting for something
i dont even know
will i look back on these squandered days,
scold myself for my ignorance?
applaud and grieve my innocence?
or just wish i hadn’t waited?

i am sure to regret my cowardly inactivity
but sure also to regret my haste
if i dare
abuse this fortunate equilibrium

i am drowning
but at least the water is clear.

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