A bit of a teary day

But all will be ok. l got the results from my oncologist on Friday, l felt like l’ve had to wait forever & in a way l wish l had of. The results were not good at all in fact they were the worst l could’ve wished for. l do have a purpose for telling you & it really isn’t for sympathy, your warmth is more than enough to see me through but l need to show other women that what they feel & go through is normal & ok & that should they ever EVER need to speak to someone then l am ALWAYS here. Firstly thankyou with a thousand kisses for bubblemailing me asking how l am, l can’t tell you what that means to me XXXXXXX
l did make the mistake of going to the hospital on my own as hubby just had to work we really didn’t have much of a choice.
l think it really hit me today & as l was going through my phone No’s to see who l could call just to have a sob l found l just couldn’t bring myself to burden anyone so l ended up calling the cancer foundation & had a good cry with a nurse who was just beautiful & explained it is SO ok to feel the way l do. My oncologyst explained that l didn’t have 2 cancers but 3 very different ones (Trust me to be different) all cancers were stage 3 & aggressive l also had another 8 aggressive ones in my lympthnodes which tells them cancer seeds have spread throughout my body.At some stage they want to do a historectomy, my chemotherapy begins next Thursday & will be 18 treatments followed by 6 weeks radiation then hormone therapy. l booked my hairdressing appointment for wednesday to shave my head, l figured it would be more traumatic to wake up to clumps on my pillow & a little more frightening for my little boy. lt was explained that chemo would buy me 5 years possibly more but l’m never one to play by the rules or be the norm so you can bet l aint lay’en down to this, l promise you l promise my family & l promised me but l can tell you l’m scared & sometimes you just can’t stop the silly thoughts that pop in your head no matter how determined you are l’m just thankful they don’t last long. l am still so grateful for everything around me & will always be in love with life.
Well now that l got that out the way besides l’ve run out of bloody tissues l’m still gaining BIG momentum in my art show THIS Saturday l am so SO excited & can’t wait to take plenty of photos for you guys l have had the most wonderful feedback from my paintings on display at the community centre & if thats anything to go by it should be one of the greatest fun days of my life & l’ll be enjoying every second. l managed to raise $700 to purchase plenty more of my art work so all fingers crossed l’ll make sure no other woman in Broadford will go without support for cancer or depression. l must give a giant thankyou to Jo & Peter at redbubble for giving me a discount in support. Just wait till l hold out my hand for the politicians to slap a few bucks in it too :-P Well till then l guess l shall bid you goodnight with all my LOVE & thankyou’s for being so wonderful Flipyalateralligators XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX !

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