I hide behind my writing and my art.


Joined January 2009

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In some country in the past
before I entered this impasse
I was different from today
in nearly every single way
I was whole and in control
before the darkness hit my soul
before the black pit swallowed me
and made it so I couldn’t see
beyond the edge of my small box
imprisoned like a hunted fox
disabled now for all my life
I was tempted by the knife
to end the road I now was on
and I just wanted to be gone
when you know the sun won’t rise
there’s only blackness in the skies
there’s only emptiness in you
what the hell are you to do
then after drifting down the river
seeing no end to it ever
I started then to write it down
now the evil bird had flown
suddenly I used my pen
to make the darkness real again
instead of living in my head
I no more wanted to be dead
now I externalized that pain
and found that I could live again
with words I painted pain and grief
from mine and others’ balance sheets
as I saw knives and blood and pain
the more I came to live again
I saw the way to feel the light
was keeping pain within my sight
but not with spite or trite revenge
living life just to avenge
the hurts that others put on you
is just a foolish thing to do
it hurts yourself much more than them
and brings the pain back home again
so I began to paint the scenes
which for me expressed dark dreams
in images of suffering
and pictures only demons bring
the purpose of this is twofold
to tell the truth that I’ve been told
to exorcize those pallid ghosts
whose torment I can feel the most
so though I can’t see through the mist
this monster here is on the list
I’ll make it real, I’ll have my say
if not here some other way
if not here then somewhere else
and I’ll find someone new to tell
until I drop I’ll never stop
on the flatscreen or atop
whatever hill or place I find
turning out these evil rhymes
and wicked pictures so unkind
they often seem to be maligned
but if you really look at them
maybe they’re not so wicked then
perhaps then in their little way
they might have something real to say
but either way, and even if
my rhymes and all that other stuff
are worthless drivel, doomed to dust
I just know that now I must
write out whatever’s in my mind
because it keeps the past behind





Many thanks to petronieska-stock for the model.

Many thanks to Ash Sivils for a texture

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