The Echoes Of A Soulmate

I sit sobbing on the worn ceramic
As the cool caress of water rains down on me from above
Willing it to wash away the vicous words that replay in my mind
The ebony cloud consuming my mind

A battle of the hearts
Two souls intertwined so deeply that the rip runs deep
Love and passion turned to rage so startling
Over something … no nothing … it doesn’t matter now

I can hear him pacing still, out in the hall
Wearing a trail of frustration into the floorboards
Breathing that heavy sigh when words cannot be found
Treading that frail line between forgiveness and resignation

I tread that same line
Where a decade of shared memories and tender moments is held so dear
Clashing with the whirlwind of anger that swirls vivid and fresh
So confronting and overwhelming

My bleary eyes survey our tiny bathroom
What would it be like if this was it? If he was gone?
His toothbrush no longer next to mine
Or his towel no longer laying crumpled and damp on the floor

I let my mind skip forward to a time when we are no longer “we”
I walk the hallway running fingertips along the silent walls
No more angry words echoing through the timbers
I am alone

It seems normal … just quieter, more peaceful, less judgemental
And I revel in the freedom of it
As I pace each room my stomach stirs with a thousand butterflies
The realisation that each memory is now a hollow void

His lounge chair sags where his frame once fit so completely
The kitchen has faded to grey without him flipping pancakes there
There is no comforting drone of the mower as he tends the yard
The disheveled sheets remain neatly tucked in on his side of the bed

All that remains is a deafening silence which blankets me thickly
Is this what I truly wanted?
All the freedom and space in the world
Yet no-one to share it with

No-one to tell about the crazy old lady at the grocery store
No-one to roll their eyes at my hysterical laughter over a tv commercial
No-one to press against under the crisp linen at midnight
Little things that avalanche in my mind as they are noticed one by one

A sound pulls me back to the cool shower and I am shivering
There he stands, hesitant in the doorway
Still undecided but drawn to me all the same
The torment in his eyes matches that in my heart

The horror of my lonely vision sends me bolting upright
And in the same moment his strides toward me
One, two, three steps
Small in proportion but gigiantic in significance

His eyes meet mine and we are locked in embrace
Letting the cool wash over us both, extinguishing the fire
But even as the water does its work, another fire stirs
It starts deep in my belly and winds up through my chest

As I feel the heat of true love explode through my ribcage
I know that we will be here again, one day … probably many days
But it will be worth the anguish for the joy of a soulmate
The comfort of a true companion

Love can be sunshine and lollipops or bittersweet torment
Genuine passion is wild and untamed
But as long as his toothbrush rests next to mine
We will fill these walls with so many memories

We are not alone

The Echoes Of A Soulmate

DanikaL

Townsville, Australia

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When you love someone deeply and completely they imprint your life forever. Perservere on the journey for it will be worth the destination.

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