What has happened
what once was, isn’t anymore
the truth is killing me

when i was younger
tiny and frail
i believed she could save me
from all the pain and hurt
of the world
and myself
If anything would go wrong
she could protect me
she always did
If i got hurt she would comfort me
and that would make the pain go away
with just a touch or a hug
i would feel better
when i was scared
seeing shadows moving through my bedroom
she would stay with me throughout the night
some how she always knew
how to make me feel better
she was always there
taking me for walks on the beach
buying me my favorite foods to eat
she still remembers to this day
what my favorite food is
that she used to get me
when i was 3
if anything ever went wrong
i would cry and scream for her
praying that she could hear me
to come save me
and when she didn’t come
I cried and screamed louder
blinded from all the tears
voice horse from all the yelling
she would come
and save me
from the ugliness of the world
i was misunderstood
but somehow she understood me
taking my hand
showing me things
that were beautiful
helping me understand
the simplicities of beauty
can be found in almost anything
teaching me to treat people,
as i want to be treated
always hugging me and telling me she loved me
spending all of her free time with me

As i grew older
around four years old
things started to change
she started to work more
thus, I started going to day care
so i only got to see her a couple hours a day
i felt abandoned
who was going to save me?
when i got scared or hurt
I would cry and scream for her
but she never saved me
i would just cry and scream louder
looking frantically to see if she would save me
hoping to be taken away from the pain and horrors
i would overly exhaust myself
not knowing how to deal with the pain
i tried to make everyone around me
feel how i felt

Thus leading to:
Me hating my mother




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While i wrote this I just cried

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