Coming Straight from the Heart - I Just Don't See It

I just don’t see it anymore
(snickers hahahaha)
I ….
Just
….Don’t …..See ….. it
Its 3:21pm
A Wednesday
In the month of October
And I just don’t see it
I am nothing but a waste
And the seconds tell me that
As they run around me
Prancing about
As they quickly evolve into minutes
That just countdown to the hours
That just slowly countdown to the day
That I lay 6ft deep
And covered with flowers
I want to melt away in a acid shower
Have my limbs plucked away
Like a flower
That a girl plays
“He loves me, He loves me not” with
Reciting in a melody
He loves me
He loves me not
He loves me
He loves me not
“Fuck who loves me”
Fuck it!
Give me the gun make sure it cocked
No silencer
I want to hear that explosion of the bullet rushing towards me
To be heard
Let me kiss the barrel
And feel the love of one shot
Straight through this chaotic brain of mines
That won’t stop
With the questions
I’m tired of the questions
? marks scribbled in my head
Like to been drawn with a mark a lot
All just parked nicely in my head
Lined up one after another
One by One
Like to be some damn cars in a parking lot
That I have no answers to
I want to die
This should be the end of me this fucking second
Blast off at the count of ten
1

2

fuck it 10!
Hang ME!!!
Hang me by the halo
That I tried for years to live under
Hang me till there noting left
No kicking desire to live
Just
…..stillness….
And my body hangs dry
Like laundry on an afternoon
In a hot summer day
And than let my body
….My paper sheet of a body
Blow
….
Blow into the winds
and never be seen again….
- This is coming straight from my heart
Literally this is my heart speaking
I’m glad that I have a strong mind
Because other wise I would have been another fool
That lost his life following his heart
See the heart is too emotional
One second its happy and wants to sing in the rain
Next second weeping with tears
But at the same enrage
And wants to play Russian Roulette
Till it feels no more pain
Just the launching of a hotheaded
Lead bullet to hush the away the feelings
And feel the feelings
Of not feeling no more
I don’t follow my heart no more
To many close encounters
I follow my instincts
I make my own footprints
And my heart follows me
My heart might not see it
But I see it perfectly
I see a will to live
Everyday I open my eyes
Its like God paints the picture for me
And I see it
The will to live is to just live
And live like days are no more
Just one way tickets and you don’t know
If its to tomorrow
Or the Gates of Heaven
Because there no life after this besides Heaven
The only hell there is
Is the Hell you are born into
Just live it up

Coming Straight from the Heart - I Just Don't See It

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Davis, United States

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I just feel like maybe I should be nothing at all ….fuck thats how I feel… like nothing….- but remember these words are coming straight from the heart…… smilez

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