"DownWard Fade"

How can I,
feel so alone?
The world spins around me,
while I sit at home.

I watch as they smile,
and I watch as they embrace.
But I close my eyes,
as they ignore my face.

They look at eack other,
not knowing I’m there.
I envy their emotion,
from the shadow in which I stare.

I’m tired and I’m weak,
this facade has run it’s toll.
The armour begins to fade away,
and uncover a battered soul.

Have I lost the game, or even played?,
have the cards been fully dealt?
Or do I simply replace the mask?,
and disguise the anquish felt?

It’s the loneliness, in the midst of a crowd,
and the hand thats always cold.
It’s the music that cuts me,
and makes my heart feel old.

Is it loneliness that brings rejection?,
or rejection that brings it’s friends?
It seems I’d rather not think at all,
than to think of it again.

But it’s up to me, and who I am,
to destroy this invisible wall.
But who, if any, will be standing there,
when this barrier takes it’s fall?

I am whom I have created.
But wonder what it is I’ve made.
The search for the soul is lonely,
and will end in my downward fade.

Clayton Turner

"DownWard Fade"

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Artist's Description

This is an old work from 2001. I was in a “dark phase” back then, trying to find out who I was supposed to be. It’s interesting to look back at writings and see where I’ve been, and more importantly, where I’m going.

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