I Don't Like Myself Much

I don’t like myself much
Waking up is such a colossal disappointment
My frail mental state only decays with each passing day
What the fuck is wrong with me?
There are no reasons for such extreme self loathing
Yet like a rose, these feelings grow everyday
I hate everything about myself,
But why?
I don’t even know who “I” am
Have I ever known?
My outlook is so bleak
I can’t take this
Oh, how I wish there was an easy way out
I can’t even muster the motivation to end myself
So worthless
I can’t stand the sight of myself
Everything I touch seems to wither
Is there any hope for one as corroded as I?
I can no longer keep up this facade
I look content outside,
But inside I’m hurting
Does it please you?
Why am I so fucking hideous inside?
I can’t go on lying to myself like this
Then, I met someone
Someone who understands my misery
A fateful encounter?
Maybe so
With each passing day
The dark clouds of despair
Oh, so familiar
They plagued my mind so long
Have started to roll
What is this light?
Is this happiness?
A reason to go on living?
This gift too great for a man like me
A glimmer of hope in a black world
I graciously accept
I shall wait and see…
…see what the future holds

I Don't Like Myself Much

Brendan2817

Joined January 2010

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My first attempt at self expression. I personally don’t like this one much, but I guess my opinion doesn’t count. It’s too scattered and messy, I think. Unorganized.

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