5 Miles Off

I’m driving past the police stand
and notice my speedometer is 5 miles off
most likely the result
of driving on a donut
for 300 miles past the limit of 50
watching the
flick
flick
flick
of the whirring landscape lights
clicking past in a steady rhythm
switching light to dark
and counting off my identities
one
two
three in all in my current state
each possessing a different name
and audience
a devoted daughter
a loving wife
and the third a fetal form
springing from the seeds of a dead self
dangerously close to abortion
as the day to day of leading a triple life
takes its toll
I drop change into the booth
flick
flick
flick
the landscape lights
became highway markers
somewhere along the way
and I’m driving east
towards my destiny
towards a sunrise
still 9 hours away
or 9 days
9 weeks
9 long years
since I met this man
and more and more I remember
why I hated him for a time
time being fluid like asphalt
and equally artificial
I pull a u-ey
head back west
I still have shit to do
passing neon tinted Xmas lights
Christ having long disassociated from the holiday
but Yuleman and the Anti-Clause
still follow through
not to mention that almighty dollar
as we bow to the retail gods
in the name of holiday spirit
my own dearly bought portion of which
sits in a Wally World bag
in my passenger seat
bump
bump
bump
the last few blocks
as if they honestly expect me
to go any slower
parallel park next to
the family dumpster
reflecting on the drive
yes
my life’s speedometer is 5 miles off
but then
I could argue
that the world’s speedometer
is 5 miles off from me

5 Miles Off

Amberwind

Indio, United States

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Artist's Description

I dictated this on a long car drive, trying to clear my head. Unfortunately, I did not have a tape recorder with me at the time, so a few parts I had said in the car were lost to the aether by the time I was able to write it down.

As with all my poetry, this was meant to be read out loud, and not just read. I do not currently have a recording made, but I will provide a link if I receive enough requests.

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