Blocked

No. I’m not playing Tetris (actually I was last week…) but despite a recent “stroke of genius” and the fact that I managed to make some artworks… I’m absolutely blocked. Blame it to this time of the year, a sudden lack of inspiration or inability to materialize what I have in mind.

The massive block strikes me everywhere. No matter if I sit and start modelling in MAX, the model will look like crap (let alone the textures with Photoshop) or if I fire up Word and try to write a story… Sometimes I can’t even start them. I have the idea but either a random X or Y come into the equation and mess up the entire thing.

I’m trying to do my best to overcome this crappy moment. For that purpose I have countless notebooks where I hand-write and/or sketch all sorts of weirdness. But I would love to turn that weirdness into something and that is what drives me mad at the moment.

Ever had some solid and nice ideas and felt unable to apply them? Sucks bad. Currently I had three 3D/2D mixes in mind but I only started one (by started I mean it: it’s just 12 splines and a polygon of 12 faces) and still have horribly childish drawings for the other two.

However that’s not the main worry. I love to write. In fact, I would love to get paid for writing. Yeah, keep on dreaming. I’m already aware I might and WILL get paid more for working as an editor, correcting drafts and polishing stuff for the print than being on the other side of the mirror, struggling to get 20 words published. Another side of this irony is that I had more luck making artworks (that is, showing in images the stuff I cannot properly describe/write about due to its high levels of… oddity, yeah, that could be the word) than with writing.

Ok, gotta go back to see if I can come up with something. The blank page syndrome (or empty 3d space syndrome too), coupled with the saturnian block are slowly rusting my mood.

Te odio, maldito fin de año, ¡es una porquería!

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