I LOVE HER......

Judge me if you will… I can not change what has happened… All I know is the love we shared was intense and satisfying.. I met her three years ago… I believe it was raining that day.. It was cold, I know that for certain.. I was standing there with my hands in my pockets, shoulders scrunched, with my head down.. as I slightly bounced up and down trying to keep the warmth in my body.. When I heard “Is your pump working?” I looked over and there she was… “Yup, it’s working” I replied, as I tilted my head back down slowly.. due to the fear of staring.. She was beautiful… Her hair.. her hair just drew my attention.. It was a blood red… with black hi-lights.. but not streaks really.. the black was mainly at the tips… She was pale, but not in a scary ghostly way… but more in a soft sensual Kidman way…I could see the frustration in her face as she toiled with the pump… “I prepaid” she said.. Voice slightly risen.. as if to say… “I don’t think the attendant did his job” as there was a click sound… my fuel was done… I hung the nozzle back up and walked around the pump… “Lets see if we can’t figure this out” I said right before I started to giggle… “What?… what is it?” she asked… not as agitated as before.. but now with a silly curiosity… “I’m not sure hun, but I think you have to hit the start button” Her pale face was suddenly two shades brighter than her blood red hair.. as she smirked and said “I knew that”…. “I am sure you did” I replied sarcastically…We talked for a moment after figuring out her crisis, and we just seemed to hit it off.. We exchanged numbers and parted ways.. She was so beautiful, no way would she ever consider me… But oddly enough when I worked up the nerve to call her she was excited to hear from me.. So, after conversing for a couple of hours I decided to ask her out on a date.. And without hesitation she said yes.. That first date was more than I could have ever hoped for.. We walked, we talked, we laughed… we just consumed each other in… It was the start of something magically tragic…Only three months later we were sharing an apartment.. Everything was going along so smoothly… til the turbulence set in.. Maybe we had moved too fast.. maybe our love had just flourished out of control.. it is all so very hard to say.. all I know is the cuteness that once outlined our relationship was now overcome with skepticism.. I was skeptical to why she would want to be with me… And she was skeptical to my commitment.. I loved her… more than seemed possible for that amount of time.. I was also scared… I could not handle the thought of being hurt by her.. Which I just ignorantly assumed was going to be the eventual outcome.. So I tended to be withdrawn… which gave her reason for concern..In retrospect I had no reason to have skepticism… She loved me.. I was just way too insecure… So….. I did something extremely stupid…… No!! I did not cheat on her.. I told her I needed my space… I needed to re-evaluate “US”… So I did… I packed a few things and went to my buddies house to stay.. I missed her everyday… I wanted so bad to just grab my crap and run to her… But, I couldn’t… I was still scared… Only now my fear was not of her being out of my league.. but that of distance.. Would she even want me back? What would I say… I walk upright like a man.. But I scurry like a mouse… So… I did nothing……Now I stand here three months later… She does not know I am here… Her sister called to tell me she was leaving… She is to board a train and head off for a couple of months to visit family and to reconnect with herself in a sense… I am at the bottom of the steps… Watching her make her way down the tunnel…Every step leads her further from me… I can hear the conductor off in the distance bellowing out “All Aboard”… My heart races as the words begin to scramble inside my head… I have to scream… I have to stop her… She has to know… I LOVE HER…. I walk upright like a man…. But I scurry like a mouse……. So…. I do nothing……….

I LOVE HER......

Brad Hutchings

Sturgis, United States

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Written for “Passenger” competition in the Short stories – Spherical Scriptings group… I am no pro when it comes to writting and I know that there is probably a lot of mistakes in this… but hey we all got to start somewhere :) Hope you like it… criticism is absolutely welcome….

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