Silentcries
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Print version of my tee, Hold Me… / / am really glad and thankful that you guys have been able to tell and feel the emotions from this design when i first upload it as a tee yesterday.. thank you thank you.. X) / Originally draw with .05 pen in my A6 sketchbook.. / textured and colored in photoshop.. Inspired by the song When Love and Death Embrace by HIM I’m in love with you / And it’s crushing my heart / All I want is you / To take me into your arms When love and death embrace I love you / And you’re crushing my heart / I need you / Please take me into your arms When love and death embrace / When love and death embrace / When love and death embrace / When love and death embrace
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Originally draw with .05 pen in my A6 sketchbook.. sometimes when i can’t get to sleep, i’d take out my lil sketchbook and doodle as i listen to my (now dead) ipod.. i find it rather relaxing to doodle in the dark.. i don’t need to worry about details.. no worries about me spoiling/hurting my eyes.. i hardly bother to squint.. to me, am just doodling with what little light i get from my brother’s room.. the point of sketching in the dark is to not worry about details and mistakes. so i won’t be stressed about making mistakes.. =D / textured and colored in photoshop.. Inspired by the song When Love and Death Embrace by HIM I’m in love with you / And it’s crushing my heart / All I want is you / To take me into your arms When love and death embrace I love you / And you’re crushing my heart / I need you / Please take me into your arms When love and death embrace / When love and death embrace / When love and death embrace / When love and death embrace
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When the agony is too much to bear / And you have no one to turn to / What will you do? i’ve been dealing with depression for the last 4yrs plus. honestly, i don’t really find it funny or anything to be proud of. but i work hard, and try to make light my condition as much as possible, in hope that people will accept me for my humor at least. but there are times when the pain and agony gets too much to bear.. when i just want to lash out at those who hurt me, at those to jeer at me, at those who despise me, at those who looks down on me. but that is wrong. i know. violence is wrong. to hurt somebody physically is wrong. but to be abused mentally is ok? nope.. i don’t think so.. i’ve heard many different advices.. some of them more sensible than others.. but it all comes down to “it’s easier said than done”. Don’t you agree? it’s always easier to advice others.. but it’s so hard to accept advices ourselves.. but we must always remember, ultimately, it’s up to us to make the choices to solve our problems, to free us from our pain. we can only hope for our beloved ones to help us. but we mustn’t depend on them. we too, must help ourselves, to free ourselves from our agony. this is the advice from the girl who gets mentally abused from the people she loved and trusted since birth.. Also available as a mugs and keychains: / /
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what is the point of telling you anything / you never listen to me / you only hear the bad, the worst / but the good news? / you don’t care for them at all why? am i nothing to you / can’t you understand me / can’t you try, at least / do i mean nothing to you? why can’t you feel happy for me? i fought hard on my own / i’m slowly reaching my goals / accomplishing them slowly but why… / why do you feel nothing for me? uploaded this a few days ago actually.. just didn’t have it published till now.. you know.. that feeling.. when you’ve accomplished something, but no one seems to give a damn? it feels like sorta.. like having acid pouring out of my heart instead of blood.. running through my veins, burning me from the inside.. tears.. tears burn my eyes.. so much, it’s as if i’m crying blood.. how can i not turn into a hermit? if i retreat from people.. maybe i won’t need them so much. i won’t care for them. then i won’t feel pain if they never care or love or feel happy for me, hey?
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Drew this piece early this month while mending my stall early this month, listening to my ipod cos there’s not much customers on sundays.. I initially thought i’d call this “You can’t see me”... i was a lil confused by my drawing.. so i showed Karin and ask what she thought of it and she mentioned.. “You wish to remain hidden? You can’t see me, or are you saying ’ you won’t see me’ – is this you hiding your heart and your feelings behind the cutest teddy bear I’ve ever seen?” Love Karin!! XD i realised that my drawing’s prolly derived from my daily life at home.. i’m not allowed to express any sadness or anger or stress or pain etc. being too happy is wrong too.. even if i were to express them, she won’t see or acknowledge them.. she’d ignore my pain and agony, even if she’s the one that causes it while he’d worry thinking i’d go nuts anytime.. i miss Brown… PS: i really should be preparing for my stall.. but i got distracted by this while creating printouts for my pendants.. i won’t be logging back in till next monday.. eheh.. sorry.. Fall Strains by To Die For Where were you when I needed someone / To help me ease my pain / Where were you when I needed comfort / To get me through the day There was no one to hold my hand / When I couldn’t sleep at night / No one there to understand / Too scared to sleep ‘til daylight Another night without you / Another night of fear / Another night of loneliness / Wishing you were here Can’t find the light without you / Darkness calls me near / To another sleepless night / Whishing you were here Years we shared have lost their meaning / Wihtout you by my side / Memories of all the good times / Bring tears in my eyes Another night without you / Another night of fear / Another night of loneliness / Wishing you were here Can’t find the light without you / Darkness calls me near / To another sleepless night / Wishing you were here
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A broken piece of china / can only be pieced back so many times… / Until one day, all that is left / is nothing but dust… ~ frozenfa i’ve uploaded this piece over at my Zazzle gallery but haven’t upload this here yet.. eheh.. ^ _ ^“
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Hey everyone!!
by frozenfaUmmm.. hello…. O.O” To all who’ve been worried about me, i’m so so so sorry!! i know i can’t apologize enough for my weird disappear…
Ummm.. hello…. O.O” To all who’ve been worried about me, i’m so so so sorry!! i know i can’t apologize enough for my weird disappearance from RB, and my lack of replies on all your wonderful comments.. and also my lack of comments.. i’m truly truly sorry. I’ve been basically down all these time, since September.. down.. sorta down, yea.. umm.. how do i explain.. umm.. ok, i’ll write a from the start thing, so this journal will be lengthy so yea.. Oo” Basically i once had a major major breakdown last Sep 2007. it was pretty bad. i sooooo wanted to have myself admitted into the hospital to get away from life and to avoid hurting anyone. i was that close to really hurting someone.. in my mind, i was fighting and struggling not to harm anyone. not to harm myself. i was presented with horrible ugly images of how i wanted to really really really hurt the someone who’s hurting me mentally and emotionally. but my brother managed to get home on time to save me. God bless him. So what happened in 2008 this year was that.. i managed to last through the past 1yr with no more major breakdowns.. i’ve worked hard and i’ve managed to control myself enough not to have any breakdown for a year. and i was proud of myself. until a few days after the 1yr anniversary that that same someone said something nasty again and voila, there goes my clean records of no major breakdowns~ pfft.. Someone you truly care for and respect and love suggested that i behave properly or i’d be caught by the mental hospital and dragged away and locked up.. it’s basically a big huge insult and jab to me.. biiiiiiiig.. it’s like.. “what the hell makes her think i’d go into hysteria?!” big.. it’s like a vampire being stabbed in the heart big. it’s sorta, the worst words i’ve heard.. i couldn’t ask for anything more blunt. it’s as good as saying, “watch it, mad woman. you’ll be caught one day”. oooO.. typing this brings back the pain on my chest.. annoying.. the last tv drama didn’t help educate that lady either. the drama suggested that anyone having depression will go into hysteria and will attempt to kill themselves and will be full of anxiety and hysteria stuffs.. honestly, receiving such comments makes me wanna try just do that and give her what she wants. but stubborn lil me won’t give her what she wants. she’ll have to work harder at tormenting me mentally if she wants me to go into hysteria. So yea.. basically after that hurtful episode, i sorta thought i managed to get over it, but i thought wrong i guess. i tried to get back on RB, to comment and fav works.. but i couldn’t do much cos i’ve been feeling moody. i don’t want to leave a half-hearted comment – especially when i know that i’d be responding to the piece for cheerfully if i weren’t feeling moody. i’ve received so many kind bmails and emails from you guys.. Midori-sama.. Ellen.. Lisa.. Christelle.. Lori.. iAN.. Tom.. Julie.. Rory.. Gillian.. Vestque.. GG.. argh!!! there’s so many of you lovely people out there bmailing and commenting and being so nice to me, i’m so sorry for disappearing!! there’s so many kind comments on my SilentCries gallery too!! You guys are too kind!! am not complaining, but really really really thank you all!! i’m so sorry i haven’t manage to reply to you guys.. Basically i’ve been feeling moody, and can’t bring myself to reply.. i am not my usual cheerful childish self, and i’d feel bad to tell you guys am not ok cos i think it’s not too big a problem still and yet it held me down so much.. Basically i planned to reply to all the comments and bmails and emails only after i’ve gotten myself back up. OO” i am so so sorry.. i know i must have worried some of you guys.. though seriously, there’s no need to worry for me, am nothing! as in.. there’s no need to worry for me.. how do i say this.. i’ve dealt with crappy people all my life, so i will be ok. i will not go into hysteria, i will not be dragged away in straight jacket, i will not kill myself and i will not kill others. cough cough.. i would like to thank Karin for reminding me that i haven’t been replying to anything for a long time and that includes personal bmails and emails.. i honestly didn’t realize i’ve been withdrawing myself. i just thought i’m just procrastinating to answering bmails and emails.. I’ve been drawing and playing on my wacom the last 3days.. immersing myself into drawing and sketching, hoping to purge out any negative feelings in me. here’s my first try at sketching with wacom.. / it’s really fun.. and now i’m trying to color with a wacom.. will show you guys once it’s done.. it’s a little guy, by the name of Kenny… he’s very young and very quiet.. he cries easily. he loves to be carried and hugged. X) he’ll be done a 2-3 days i guess.. To those who love silly lil jokes, my bro helped came up with the words for these two tees (will make them available here soon i guess).. / / Last but not least, thank you so so much to the mystery buyer of SUSHI!!! / sold on 7th Oct Major Thank You to JakkiO for purchasing Paint Yourself! Card / And Thank You to the latest mystery buyer of I Love Me – Have You Loved Yourself Today? Card!! / Thank you so much to RB for featuring I Love Me – Have You Loved Yourself Today? in the Art section!! X)
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SilentCries making progress.. Thank you~
by frozenfaHi All!! it’s rather unexpected.. but my other gallery here, SilentCries has been slowly ma…
Hi All!! it’s rather unexpected.. but my other gallery here, SilentCries has been slowly making progress.. There have been features which i didn’t realise until today when i decide to click on the feeds.. oops.. eheh.. Am very very thankful for the following features.. / / “Dear Pillow…” was featured in the group Shanime: Inspired by Anime’ 19 days ago / and featured in the group the love of The Love of Eerie and Enchanting Artwork 13 days ago… and… My latest tee there, Hold Me… / / was featured in the group Shanime: Inspired by Anime’ about today. And the print version, was featured in Burst > Anime and Manga! today too!! =D / Thank you so very much to all the group admins!! The print version of Dear Pillow also managed to receive a TBA over at Zazzle on the 20th Nov 08 / there haven’t been any sales yet, but i’m really thankful and appreciative enough of all the lovely lovely responses am getting for my designs/writings there.. Karin had been especially kind to comment on so many of my pieces over at my zazzle’s SilentCries gallery thank you so so much for all of them, Karin.. they’re very encouraging and am very thankful for them all.. am really happy to see the responses am getting for my latest work there, Hold Me… am glad that my style there is accepted and even more touched to read the comments there, that my work is expressive enough.. urm.. can’t type much more, for some weird reason my right arm decides to burn and hurt like a ahem ahem.. it’s very painful like it’s being twisted.. think i must have strained it somehow.. doesn’t help that i slept on the floor last night.. argh!! signing off… / ~fa PS: lil fraz was also featured in thick black outlines 17 days ago as a Happy Birthday!! card /
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SilentCries = Frozenfa = Fa
by frozenfaEheh.. sorry am late.. but, i think most of you guys out there have read the journal written by Karin...
Eheh.. sorry am late.. but, i think most of you guys out there have read the journal written by Karin about Clinical Depression and my new gallery here in RB? ^ _ ^“ Eheh.. yea, i just started a new gallery here as SilentCries... it’s sorta supposed to be a place where i’ll upload some of my darker “angsty” pieces and writings.. so those used to Tim and my lil animal friends here might not be able to accept my writings or drawing there.. so i was rather hesitant and scared to announce or tell anyone about it.. i was worried you guys might find me scary or think of me as a freak or something. i started SilentCries mainly because i don’t want to keep them in me.. i don’t want to just keep my pain with me.. i wanna put it up and share it with anyone who might be interested to look at it.. i also want those who might be in the same situation as me to know that they are not alone. scary disturbing drawings and thoughts.. i have them too.. so i hope people who might be in similar situation as me will feel less isolated and alone.. i hope i can help them express what they feel with my drawings or writings.. i love all the wonderful friends i’ve made here and at Zazz as frozenfa.. so i was worried that if you guys see that other side of me, i’d scare you guys away, i’d lose the friends i have.. but then again, the works in SilentCries are a part of me as well. so basically, am perfectly ok with anyone who might not want to be associated with me over at SilentCries, but i truly hope you guys won’t be afraid and avoid me here as well.. Love and Hugs~ /
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Cough Cough Cough!! ack!!!
by silentcriesHey everyone!!! i’m back!! sorta.. am having a bad cough and sore throat some.. plus running nose.. i think it’s due to the extra strong …
Hey everyone!!! i’m back!! sorta.. am having a bad cough and sore throat some.. plus running nose.. i think it’s due to the extra strong winds we seem to be getting here in sg.. will work on recovering as fast as i can.. Stall opening has taken quite a toll i guess.. running around finding last minute printer/supplier.. going to the art shop to press my own keychains and buttons.. my underarms feel less flabby now.. the downside is that, pressing too many buttons makes my wrists stiff and achy.. i think i pressed more than 300 buttons and keychains altogether.. i shall not press any buttons/keychains till mid feb!!! I’ve met some of the friendliest stall owners there.. 2 of them bought quite a number of my buttons.. mostly Tim.. One of them, Joan, is now sorta my partner in stall.. Meaning if there’s any bazaar outside of PaTH which we’re interested in, we’ll share rental to just rent 1 area to test out the place.. Do check out her lovely blog here.. =D She make some really lovely accessories!! i love her pendants most.. They’re all very intricately shaped by herself and to date, she’d sold more than a thousand pieces!! Joan also saw my RB gallery and was interested in my SilentCries series of drawings.. she said that i should sell them at my stall too.. it’s really kind of unbelievable and encouraging at the same time.. it’s like someone told me in person, to actually try sell my darker designs at my stall.. i guess i can give it a try, hey? i just printed 3 designs.. all 3 for myself to wear.. i think the designs here will be accepted by the emo kids, hey? I’ll be making SilentCries designs into pendants soon.. and yea.. hope i’ll be able to get a buyer or two.. i did make them into buttons and keychains.. can’t recall if i sold any.. but i think they look kinda odd on button/keychain.. they’ll look nicer on pendants or tees.. ok, i’m babbling.. Click here to view some photos of me and my stall..
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Thank you so so muchie!!!
by frozenfaEheh.. just a lil journal for me to keep track of my sales updates and thank da buyers~ =D *Thank you very very much to the 3 mystery …
Eheh.. just a lil journal for me to keep track of my sales updates and thank da buyers~ =D Thank you very very much to the 3 mystery buyers of my following pieces!!!!!!! / / Julian The Conductor? Oo” / / I Love Me – Have You Loved Yourself Today? Card / / Yuriko-chan And then there’s the so very unexpected sales over at my SilentCries Gallery!! / for those who’re not watching me there… / / Thank you so so much to petajauch for purchasing the tee!!! And last but not least.. just wanna share some of the lovely sales i’ve made at Zazzle.. i haven’t been keeping track of them.. OO” / Thank you, Fabrice from Melbourne for purchasing Sobs… Tshirt / Thank you very muchie to Ellen for purchasing Paint Yourself! Button / Thank you Henry from Brooklyn for purchasing Schmoo keychain and… / ... ARGH!!! tshirt / Thank you very much to Tasia from London for purchasing Silenced poster and… / / ... Silenced – Original poster / Thank you to Michael from Orlando for purchasing Julian the Rasta Crab magnet / Thank you Carole from Pittsburgh for purchasing Chibi Frazzle Postage / Thank you Armstrong from Ray City for purchasing Sobs… tshirt / Thank you Juanita for purchasing Julian the Conductor tshirt / Thank you very much Robert from Redwood city for purchasing 2 pieces of customised Hello!!! Tshirt / Thank you so so much to all the buyers of my designs!! the above Zazzle sales are made from Sep to current.. so it’s not really that much, not enough to feed me anyway.. but am very happy and thankful for each of them!! hopefully someday i’ll be able to earn a little more eh? / HUGS to everyone!! /
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It's World Mental Health Day!!
by silentcriesNo no.. am not suggesting some celebration or something.. though i do wish that more people will understand about mental health, and hope…
No no.. am not suggesting some celebration or something.. though i do wish that more people will understand about mental health, and hopefully dampen the annoying stigma the society tend to paste on us. Basically i just managed to join Voices of the Dark and the Deep group as an admin. the main reason is because i was hoping to get a place for some of us to gather and share our experiences and help each other. due to time constraints, the forum’s not really well formatted and categorised yet.. but the first section i made is certainly for there to stay (i hope)! Tips & Advices From The Experienced Section / i realized from Karin’s journal to help me, Clinical Depression & Silent Cries that many of us here actually do suffer from some form of depression or bad health or mental health problems.. What are some of the different Mental Health Problems? / Check out the list on the left hand side of this website or this page for those who have no idea what genre are those under (there’s that many different form and names). i think some of us who have a form or another of mental illness will agree with me that the public need to be seriously educated that there are actually many form of mental illness eh? Well, we may not be able to educate everyone, but we can try by slowly educating the one closer to us. Easier said than done. / is that what you’re thinking? hehe.. yesh, i read minds… / i agree. it’s seriously easier said than done. i know because i’ve been trying to educate 1 lady for the past 4yrs, and till now, i still fail. but hey!! does that mean i should stop trying? if it’s for my own good, why should i stop? it’s frustrating, yes. i agree. but it’s really important we try to educate those close to us ie. friends and especially family because they’re there to stay and (hopefully) support us someday. Anyway, back to the point… the Tips & Advices From The Experienced Section is create with the idea of us sharing some tips and advices we might have, be it from personal experience, or from the experience of someone we love. But it is in no way a professional advice section. So ultimately, if you or someone you know, if having a medical problem that might be related to mental health, please please do seek proper professional medical help. Visit your GP, or the hospital. Seek help. It’s nothing abnormal. How can it be with millions around the world suffering from it. Seek treatment. Work towards recovery. Be strong. And screw the stigma society paste on our medications, aka “Happy Pills”. The ignorant masses will call it Happy Pills. / Many in general tend to think that it’s bad to depend on medication. “You’re get addicted.” “Why are you taking Drugs?!” “Are you nuts!?” and yadda yadda yadda.. Basically most of us know the general public believes that it’s bad to get addicted to our “Happy Pills”. But my advice is please please, stick to your medications as prescribed by doctor don’t bother taking extra (i’ve tried, it doesn’t work that way) don’t try to wean off it without consulting your doctor first (i’ve tried it and it backfire and even worsen my condition) don’t believe the public stigma about being addicted or dependent on the medicine. Why the last statement? Because i feel the public lack 1 understanding about mental illness and how our medicine works. They are not professionals. Yes, our medicine will not help solve the problem. that’s a silly notion to believe. BUT, the correct belief we should have is, our medicine is there to help us. Yes, it doesn’t help solve the problem. medicine is there to help us internally, where we can’t control, eg, the chemicals in our brain or the hormones our body releases as time passes. (am not refering to teen raging hormones, but rather some illnesses DO happen due to our body changes, releasing of some hormones that may lead to things like weight gain or hair loss that can lead to depression). So yea. The medicines prescribed by doctors are supposed to help us internally. IF at any point it seems like it’s not helping or your problem is getting worst, return to your doctor and tell him that it’s not helping or it’s getting worst. tell him how is it worst (in detail). if there is no improvement or changes in a few months, seek a second doctor’s opinion. Now, while our medicine are there to help us, we ourselves mustn’t believe in the public stigma that our medicine is a Happy Pill. No, it isn’t. It’s there to help us internally. That’s all. Ultimately, we ourselves must work hard to solve the root of our problems. / We ourselves must work hard to improve and stay healthy. / We ourselves must find solutions to help us deal with our situations and problems. We must work towards our own happiness, not depend on just medication. Don’t ever stop seeking help. Take care of yourself. Love yourself. May we all feel and get better by the next WMHD.. Take care. Be Strong. Be Healthy. Love and hugs, / fa Check out Karin’s journal here!! Help spread the word and promote awareness!! =D
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my rely regarding SilentCries
by frozenfaHi everyone!! ^ _ ^ honestly, i got dumbfounded since like.. 12hrs ago… till now, i can’t really respond to all the comments and bma…
Hi everyone!! ^ _ ^ honestly, i got dumbfounded since like.. 12hrs ago… till now, i can’t really respond to all the comments and bmails i get.. so i’d like to redirect you guys to 1 writing i just did, New Crowd… Thank You~ Truly, sincerely, thank you so so much for everything.. / especially Karin!! and you, Karin!! are you for real?! / you sure you got no hidden wings or halo somewhere?! maybe you kept them in the dresser and forgot about them? or Nudge took them from you when you’re sleeping and bury them somewhere?! i think you guys.. all of you.. those who commented on Karin’s journal and my journal, and silentcries drawings and bmailed me at silentcries.. i think you guys are soooo amazing.. i can’t believe what i read.. yea, so i’m that jaded against love and care… don’t sue me! X) Thank you… i don’t wanna my momma my poppa.. i wanna thank you guys!! yesh!! All you guys!!! Love ya!!!! it’s like 2.50am here now, so i can’t really reply to every comment.. i will go sleep now, and tomorrow, i will work hard and reply to each and every one of you wonderful amazing people who’ve commented and replied and bmailed!! Please know that you had just saved the heart of 1 girl from a tiny red dot in the world map.. XD Dedication: i dedicate this song, KIMI WA TOMODACHI by Ken Hirai to everyone!!
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Where have i been? *~major whinings*
by silentcriesHello.. hmmm.. feel free to hate me. i have been around actually.. just haven’t been really communicative. let’s just say, i’ve been craw…
Hello.. hmmm.. feel free to hate me. i have been around actually.. just haven’t been really communicative. let’s just say, i’ve been crawling into a hole, and i don’t feel like coming out, really.. i tried too.. i tried very hard to respond.. to communicate.. but i’d always end up just closing the window. hnn.. yea.. prolly part of my depression thingy.. but i really just want to cry out loud, you know? it’s been more than a week, that i want to just cry, but i can’t!! (i mustn’t be caught crying) so yea.. sometimes i manage to feel cheery enough to respond to the lovely comments i get.. but after awhile, i’ll just go… / all i can say is that i’m truly sorry for my “quietness” and lack of cheery comments.. i can’t help it. trust me, i’ve been eating my med daily. but without proper umm.. as in “real life” support, i can get rather down. i understand and truly appreciate that i have many lovely friends here who understands and care for me.. but yea.. it’s like.. it’s just hard? to be working towards my goals alone? i did receive little helps from my 2 girl friends once in awhile.. but for some bloody annoying reason, i still feel darn alone!! it’s like yea, fine, i understand it’s my life, and i have no rights to ask anyone to company me fight for what i want, i don’t really need someone to fight along with me, but at least a little encouragements like “that’s great! work hard!!” or “so how did the meeting went? did they approve?” hell, even lies like “i knew you’d get it!” or “i’m so happy and proud of you!!” will be appreciated!! i know i’m being such a baby.. but.. i mean think about it.. some of you guys have things to keep you strong.. like family or loved ones or close friends.. but i’m like almost alone if not for you guys here.. but then again, you guys are like on my laptop.. i can’t.. / why do i need company.. why do i need encouragements.. why do i need love.. why do i need all these things which.. ok, i must be stronger.. i am supposed to be heartless. i’m supposed to be the nonchalant.. i’m supposed to not need all those feelings, because prolly i’m not good enough to have them. ok.. i know i’m whining and acting like a total brat.. (at least i manage to shed some much needed tears a little..) i mean, i hardly get to sleep properly for the last few nights.. but yea, the good news is that my meeting last week was rather successful, and i’ve signed the contract and will soon have my stall with PaTH They haven’t contact me yet, to tell me when i can get my cart, but i’m sure as hell not in a hurry. i haven’t got any price tags done.. just managed to buy a rack and hanger for the tees today.. i’ll be getting some 44mm buttons pressed end of this week.. i need to do a little poster for my stall too.. and i just ordered some glass and dog tags which i most likely won’t receive till end of the year.. and a print portfolio of designs to prepare for those tees designs that are not printed yet.. and i’m currently working on 1 company webbie… and i should really find another printer before i start selling.. /
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It's WHMD - let's take care and love ourselves! =D
by frozenfaWHMD = World Mental Health Day It’s World Mental Health Day today, 10 Oct 2008. Just finish a writing...
WHMD = World Mental Health Day It’s World Mental Health Day today, 10 Oct 2008. Just finish a writing on this topic. It’s World Mental Health Day. So do check it out. If you don’t fancy the bigger and fancier fonts used for RB’s writings mode, check out the journal version of my writing instead. HAVE YOU LOVED YOURSELF, PEOPLE?! XD / / Take care. Be Strong. Be Healthy. Check out Karin’s journal here!! Help spread the word and promote awareness!! =D
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Hi All!! Yeap, i’ve been quiet after uploading Kenny by the Beach.. Eheh.. I’ve been working on trying to get my very own stall/cart/pushcart here Thanks to the ever helpful and caring and resourceful, Karin, i manage to get some numbers i can call, instead of just emailing whatever email i can find.. and finally this week, i called and managed to get into contact with some of them.. FINALLY!!! XD Now am working on taking pix of the things am going to sell at the booth, and cleaning up the pix.. makes me wish i have a mannequin to fit them on or a model or something.. i end up just laying them down on a big blue sarong and taking pic.. i think i can hear Ellen giggling now.. XD / then there’s some freelance project that’s coming in.. as much as i’d like to do more drawings, am afraid my wallet’s getting anorexia.. XD so i guess i need to start feeding it a bit.. hehe.. So yea, basically just wanna say, i’m really thankful for all the lovely responses i’ve been getting over at my Facebook page, with regards to my new profile picture there. So much so, i just worked on creating a print version and uploaded it to Zazzle yesterday.. and for the first time ever, SilentCries got a TBA!!!! Dear Pillow… Poster / / Thank you sooo muchie to Zazzle and to all my friends who gave the piece some of their very kind comments and stars!! X)
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Caged
by silentcriesLocked within the cage of glass, / Open for all to see and scorn. / He screams and punch, / and scratch the walls, / yet nothing changes…
had a lil breakdown last week.. this was what running through my mind by the time i was “done crying”.. prolly due to pressure and the fact that my medicine’s finishing.. good thing i managed to get new batch of meds, 1 burden solved.. if only the one tormenting my mind and heart will be a lil nicer more often..
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It's World Mental Health Day!!
by silentcrieswish that more people will understand about mental health, and hopefully dampen the annoying stigma the society tend to paste on us.
Sorry for a re-post of my journal .. I just realize i should put this under written work, cause i don’t want it to disappear under journal archives should my number of journals here increases. Check out Karin’s journal here!! Help spread the word and promote awareness!! =D
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To those who haven't read "Hey everyone!" by frozenfa..
by silentcriesUmmm.. hello again….? O.O” First thing first.. I’m not back. not yet.. well, i’m back, sorta.. but not really back back.. as in, i’m…
Ummm.. hello again….? O.O” First thing first.. I’m not back. not yet.. well, i’m back, sorta.. but not really back back.. as in, i’m not yet my normally cheery cheeky self. i don’t know how long will it take for me to be really back, commenting and fav-ing, but i’ll work hard!! X) To all who’ve been worried about me, i’m so so so sorry!! i know i can’t apologize enough for my weird disappearance from RB, and my lack of replies on all your wonderful comments.. and also my lack of comments.. i’m truly truly sorry. I’ve been basically down all these time, since September.. down.. sorta down, yea.. umm.. how do i explain.. umm.. ok, i’ll write a from the start thing, so this journal will be lengthy so yea.. Oo” Basically i once had a major major breakdown last Sep 2007. it was pretty bad. i sooooo wanted to have myself admitted into the hospital to get away from life and to avoid hurting anyone. i was that close to really hurting someone.. in my mind, i was fighting and struggling not to harm anyone. not to harm myself. i was presented with horrible ugly images of how i wanted to really really really hurt the someone who’s hurting me mentally and emotionally. but my brother managed to get home on time to save me. God bless him. So what happened in 2008 this year was that.. i managed to last through the past 1yr with no more major breakdowns.. i’ve worked hard and i’ve managed to control myself enough not to have any breakdown for a year. and i was proud of myself. until a few days after the 1yr anniversary that that same someone said something nasty again and voila, there goes my clean records of no major breakdowns~ pfft.. Someone you truly care for and respect and love suggested that i behave properly or i’d be caught by the mental hospital and dragged away and locked up.. it’s basically a big huge insult and jab to me.. biiiiiiiig.. it’s like.. “what the hell makes her think i’d go into hysteria?!” big.. it’s like a vampire being stabbed in the heart big. it’s sorta, the worst words i’ve heard.. i couldn’t ask for anything more blunt. it’s as good as saying, “watch it, mad woman. you’ll be caught one day”. oooO.. typing this brings back the pain on my chest.. annoying.. the last tv drama didn’t help educate that lady either. the drama suggested that anyone having depression will go into hysteria and will attempt to kill themselves and will be full of anxiety and hysteria stuffs.. honestly, receiving such comments makes me wanna try just do that and give her what she wants. but stubborn lil me won’t give her what she wants. she’ll have to work harder at tormenting me mentally if she wants me to go into hysteria. So yea.. basically after that hurtful episode, i sorta thought i managed to get over it, but i thought wrong i guess. i tried to get back on RB, to comment and fav works.. but i couldn’t do much cos i’ve been feeling moody. i don’t want to leave a half-hearted comment – especially when i know that i’d be responding to the piece for cheerfully if i weren’t feeling moody. i’ve received so many kind bmails and emails from you guys.. Midori-sama.. Ellen.. Lisa.. Christelle.. Lori.. iAN.. Tom.. Julie.. Rory.. Gillian.. Vestque.. GG.. argh!!! there’s so many of you lovely people out there bmailing and commenting and being so nice to me, i’m so sorry for disappearing!! there’s so many kind comments on my SilentCries gallery too!! You guys are too kind!! am not complaining, but really really really thank you all!! i’m so sorry i haven’t manage to reply to you guys.. Basically i’ve been feeling moody, and can’t bring myself to reply.. i am not my usual cheerful childish self, and i’d feel bad to tell you guys am not ok cos i think it’s not too big a problem still and yet it held me down so much.. Basically i planned to reply to all the comments and bmails and emails only after i’ve gotten myself back up. OO” i am so so sorry.. i know i must have worried some of you guys.. though seriously, there’s no need to worry for me, am nothing! as in.. there’s no need to worry for me.. how do i say this.. i’ve dealt with crappy people all my life, so i will be ok. i will not go into hysteria, i will not be dragged away in straight jacket, i will not kill myself and i will not kill others. cough cough.. i would like to thank Karin for reminding me that i haven’t been replying to anything for a long time and that includes personal bmails and emails.. i honestly didn’t realize i’ve been withdrawing myself. i just thought i’m just procrastinating to answering bmails and emails.. I’ve been drawing and playing on my wacom the last 3days.. immersing myself into drawing and sketching, hoping to purge out any negative feelings in me. here’s my first try at sketching with wacom.. / it’s really fun.. and now i’m trying to color with a wacom.. will show you guys once it’s done.. it’s a little guy, by the name of Kenny… he’s very young and very quiet.. he cries easily. he loves to be carried and hugged. X) he’ll be done a 2-3 days i guess.. To those who love silly lil jokes, my bro helped came up with the words for these two tees (will make them available here soon i guess).. / / Last but not least, thank you so so much to the mystery buyer of SUSHI!!! / sold on 7th Oct Major Thank You to JakkiO for purchasing Paint Yourself! Card / And Thank You to the latest mystery buyer of I Love Me – Have You Loved Yourself Today? Card!! / Thank you so much to RB for featuring I Love Me – Have You Loved Yourself Today? in the Art section!! X)
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Dear pillow, / thank you for listening to me, / for letting me scream quietly, / for letting me cry on you… thank you for being there to share my pain, / when words pierced through my heart and tear it apart. / thank you for being there for me to hug, / when the wind outside is howling, / and nightmare strikes and there’s no one to hug me… Dear pillow, / thank you for being my friend / thank you for not hurting me / thank you for not leering & jeering at me / thank you for not branding me / thank you for being there quietly thank you~ This piece got a TBA on 20th Nov 08 over at my zazzle gallery.. yay!! =D Big fat thank you to those who popped over to comment on it.. X) / / /
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Dear pillow, / thank you for listening to me, / for letting me scream quietly, / for letting me cry on you… thank you for being there to share my pain, / when words pierced through my heart and tear it apart. / thank you for being there for me to hug, / when the wind outside is howling, / and nightmare strikes and there’s no one to hug me… Dear pillow, / thank you for being my friend / thank you for not hurting me / thank you for not leering & jeering at me / thank you for not branding me / thank you for being there quietly / thank you~
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Version 2 of Dear Pillow… this time darker and without the rainy grainy background effect.. Just wanna buy this for myself.. i’ve been down with bad running nose and cough and stuffs lately.. am so so sorry for being quiet again.. i will not get back asap, and hope that i’ll somehow break these words of mine and get back asap!! XD Original Version: / Dear pillow, / thank you for listening to me, / for letting me scream quietly, / for letting me cry on you… thank you for being there to share my pain, / when words pierced through my heart and tear it apart. / thank you for being there for me to hug, / when the wind outside is howling, / and nightmare strikes and there’s no one to hug me… Dear pillow, / thank you for being my friend / thank you for not hurting me / thank you for not leering & jeering at me / thank you for not branding me / thank you for being there quietly / thank you~
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