Painful red Journal Entries

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  • / / Why Red? / I love accenting images with Red because red is the color of pain, the color of love, of stolen innocence, it is the color that flows during birth when a woman brings life into this world, it is often the color that flows out of us as we leave this earth. Today i am sharing part one of, “The Bride of Innocence”. The backgrounds you see are from the balcony pics i took during the daytime. WHAT THE LOSS OF INNOCENCE ISN’T My fellow creative Marny Barnes offered me some words that were powerful and rang true: I refuse to beleive that you don’t hold a peice of that innocene still…somewhere in all that torture you were strong enough to keep some of that innocence safe and just for you. AND I will tell you why I think that. YOU STILL see beauty all around you, / You bleed beauty and innocence out of all your work, / You touch the beauty in the torture and the pain and it grows roses…and color….and ART. If you had no innocence, you would not see the world and other peoples art with such wonder. I SEE INNOCENCE IN YOU. / YOUR HEART IS PURE AND BEAUTIFUL. YOUR ART IS BEAUTIFUL. / THE WORDS YOU LEAVE TO INSPIRE OTHERS / (ON YOUR OWN WORK…..AND THEIRS) IS BEAUTIFUL There is a mourning for the innocence i never got to have or experience as a child. / That is part of what makes incest and sexual abuse so painful. HOWEVER . . . / Marny brought to the light of my consciousness, something i failed to realize and address in my work . . . That my sweetness, my love, did not die when i was abused. It is still at my core and at my essence. My love of sweet joys remain, my softness, light, grace and hope. And these are aspects i will seek to express in my future survivor-orientated work. And i thank you Marny so much for bringing that to the surface of my consciousness. THE CONCEPTION / The Bride of Innocence (Jaeda as the Brides) was conceived back toward the end of May. That’s when construction workers put up scaffolding and started tearing down the supports on my 3rd story balcony and tarped it off. The construction guys worked a few days on my balcony, tearing stuff down, said something about needing to get permits – due to structural damage . . . and they haven’t been back since. So i decided i would get some pictures, now that my balcony is double long (they tore down the wall that separates my neighbor and me). Everything was bathed in a surreal blue light, from the tarp. The scaffolding was also double long and it looked like an endless hallway leading to the land of dreams, to heaven, anything your imagination can conjure up. The balcony itself looked very sad, broken and i kind of liked it’s decayed appeal and thought, at least i could use this to my advantage, creatively! So i went out on my balcony, during the day and night, and took lots of pictures. At night the tarped scaffolding resembled a boat marina or harbor at night. It looked so very different from, the hallway to heaven, of daylight. Previous to the balcony pictures, i had taken some studio pics of me in a makeshift bridal gown. I borrowed the bridal veil from my sister. Ripped the satin bottom off of an old nightgown for the top and used a sheer window treatment panel for the gown part/bottom because i don’t sew! LOL The bridal pictures i took of myself in the studio are what popped into my head as i was photographing the balcony and “The Bride of Innocence” was conceived. It is a slightly sad, disturbing series . . . but i wanted the next series i created to be along the lines of my Red Jane series. I felt like digging deep into all the little nooks and crannies of my soul and Spirit. All of those dark, repressed places that cry out to be acknowledged and expressed. partake and enjoy PEACE and LIGHT / j a e d a :) The Bride of Change The Bride of CHANGE / Peers through the isolating veil of pain and abuse – she is vulnerable / Her weakness is her strength because she OVERCOMES For she will no longer succumb to a tainted existence / Nor the toxic relationships, that leave dark stains on her soul / She knows . . .these ghosts of perversion and possession must go And the red of pain mixes with pink whispers of hope / She summoning the strength / To reach out, start anew and become WHOLE © Jaeda DeWalt listen to Jaeda recite The Bride of Change / —-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—- The Bride of Innocence Pretty in Pink / She softly mourns for the bride she never got to be / No pristine, white gown for this lovely lady / She will never be the Bride of INNOCENCE She does not seek what she can not be given . . . / For innocence is the one gift, / That once stolen, / Can never be replaced yet the loss is forgiven © Jaeda DeWalt listen to Jaeda recite The Bride of Innocence / —-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—- The Bride of Pain The Bride of PAIN is stuck inside / A blurry nightmare / As her subconscious rewinds her past / And plays it for her – over and over again . . . It is the kind of nightmare where / Violated flesh bleeds red / And the sound of innocence being stolen gets lost / Inside a hazy maze of surreal blue hues She falls to her knees in agony / She wants to find her way out of this repetitive dream / She knows to save herself / She must change the ending . . . © Jaeda DeWalt listen to Jaeda recite The Bride of Pain —-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—- CLOSE-UPS / /

  • Featured
    by Arletta

    Good news to start a hot and clammy day with! Bitter has been featured in…

    Good news to start a hot and clammy day with! Bitter has been featured in the “Mature Woman”: http://www.redbubble.com/groups/mature-woman group. Thank you to the lovely people, or person, who made that decision!

  • A FEATURE AT CORE !!!!!!!
    by mimulux

    awesomeness!!! ... i got my first FEATURE AND CORE!!.... thank you so much for this!!!!! :)) !http://images-0.redbubble.net/img/art/si…

    awesomeness!!! ... i got my first FEATURE AND CORE!!.... thank you so much for this!!!!! :)) Unleash the Fury, a Fractal Manipulation My big thanks also go to the hosts ushna sardar / theyellowfury

  • Featured in The Outsiders
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Illusion The mystery and light of eyes / That near to mine grow dim and cold; / They move afar in ancient skies / Mid flame and mystic darkness rolled. Thank you so much

  • Featured twice...in Creative Cards and Impressionist Art
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Sylvia Who is Silvia? what is she, / That all our swains commend her? / Holy, fair, and wise is she; / The heaven such grace did lend her, / That she might admirèd be. Thank you so much

  • New Features
    by Janis Zroback

    In Watermedia !http://images-0.redbubble.net/img/art/framecolor:black/framestyle:flat30/mattecolor:black/product:framed-print/size:l…

    In Watermedia / Virtue In Fine Arts / Sylvia In Who Are You To Judge / The Wish Thank you so much to all the Group Moderators

  • Featured in Creative Cards
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Katharine Elfin and human, airy and true, / And backed by the reflected blue. Thank you so much

  • Featured in Handrawn or Painted Art of Happiness and Joy
    by Janis Zroback

    Featured Member as well !http://images-1.redbubble.net/img/art/framecolor:black/framestyle:flat30/mattecolor:black/product:framed-pr…

    Featured Member as well / Beatrice Thank you so much

  • New Features in the The Sisterhood
    by Janis Zroback

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    / The Story in Your Eyes I’ve been thinking about our fortune / And Ive decided that we’re really not to blame / For the love thats deep inside us now / Is still the same / And the sounds we make together / Is the music to the story in your eyes / Its been shining down upon me now / I realize. The Moody Blues / Here I Pray The angels come / on the dark wings of night, / it is of you they sing, / in and around and through / cauldron of dreams, / twisted shadows, / broken schemes, / tormenting night / darkening day, / dropped and abandoned / here I pray. s.k.lindeman Thank you so much

  • New Feature...New Group..
    by Janis Zroback

    I just joined Strictly Human Faces I am so pleased, as I love Rafaela so much…this is her second feature !http://images-1.redbub…

    I just joined Strictly Human Faces I am so pleased, as I love Rafaela so much…this is her second feature / Rafaela Show me again the rich, flattering sequence of your smile, / define its meaning. / Let me hear the soft, seductive pattern of your voice / at last, explain its keening. / Needing some reason for your presence / I stand in awe / before you at the very edge of understanding, / my heart and mind at war. Nick Carding Thank you so much

  • A New Feature in Creative Cards
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Sadie Thank you so much

  • Another Feature...in The Sisterhood
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Francesca You came in out of the night / And there were flowers in your hand, / Now you will come out of a confusion of people, / Out of a turmoil of speech about you. / I who have seen you amid the primal things / Was angry when they spoke your name / IN ordinary places. / I would that the cool waves might flow over my mind, / And that the world should dry as a dead leaf, / Or as a dandelion see-pod and be swept away, / So that I might find you again, / Alone. Francesca by Ezra Pound Thank you so much

  • A New Feature in First Things
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Maryryse Thank you so much Isa Rodrigues

  • New Feature
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Wisteria Thank you so much Painted Ladies Group

  • Featured in Dimensions
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Paola Lovely one, / with a nest of copper entangled / on your head, a nest / the color of dark honey / where my heart burns and rests, / lovely one. Thank you so much

  • Featured in Impressionist Art
    by Janis Zroback

    Second Feature for Wisteria !http://images-0.redbubble.net/img/art/framecolor:black/framestyle:flat30/mattecolor:black/product:frame…

    Second Feature for Wisteria / Wisteria Violet lavender drug / slipping beneath my skin, / shucking off the stale air / of too long shut in, / too long shut away / whispering to me / to breathe deep and be. Thank you so much

  • Featured in Handrawn or Painted Art of Happiness and Joy
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Flavia…Phenomenal Woman Phenomenal woman, / That’s me. Now you understand / Just why my head’s not bowed. / I don’t shout or jump about / Or have to talk real loud. / When you see me passing / It ought to make you proud. / I say, / It’s in the click of my heels, / The bend of my hair, / the palm of my hand, / The need of my care, / ‘Cause I’m a woman / Phenomenally. / Phenomenal woman, / That’s me. excerpt…M Angelou…

  • Featured in the Sisterhood
    by Janis Zroback

    Instant Feature !http://images-2.redbubble.net/img/art/framecolor:black/framestyle:flat30/mattecolor:black/product:framed-print/size…

    Instant Feature / Edith Come back to me, who wait and watch for you Rossetti Thank you so much

  • Featured in The Divine Feminine
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Forever Autumn Thank you so much

  • New Feature in Creative Cards
    by Janis Zroback

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    / Could This be the Magic Thank you so much

  • Features....
    by Janis Zroback

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    / MeiLing.... Featured in Bits and Pieces / The Sentinels... Featured on The Home Page, many other groups and now in Live and Let Live Thank you so much

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