My dad is very ill. He has been on and off for quite awhile but things are worse than ever now. This is a scary time. I’m having trouble …
My dad is very ill. He has been on and off for quite awhile but things are worse than ever now. This is a scary time. I’m having trouble expressing what I’m feeling..but I need to post something here, for my Dad, to shout out to the world that I love you so very much Dad…. Last night / I was reminiscing with the stars / telling them how wonderful you are. / They said they would always look after you / and keep you in their hearts. I left the stars / and spoke with the moon / I told her how I loved you so / she said she would guide you / and protect you wherever you go. Today I spoke with the sun, / I told him about your warm and caring smile. / He said he would always shine on you / And follow you, no matter how far the miles. I left the sun / and talked with the clouds / telling them how you love your daughter / and that you make her very proud. They said they would always carry you / and lead you in the right direction. My Dear Daddy…you are in good hands. Please please please keep the faith. I love you.
this guy is friggin awsome love the photography
this guy is friggin awsome love the photography
Bonita’s “Featured Person Of The Week” Mark Peterson !http://images-3.redbubble.com/img/...
Bonita’s “Featured Person Of The Week” Mark Peterson Mark Peterson…..................... Let me introduce you all to Mark Peterson! I found him out here today and wow …....... he has some awesome talent ! I sincerely hope that each of you will go and check him out ! I can assure you that you WILL NOT be disappointed….. Mark says: “Im a self taught artist with a passion for animals. About ten years ago I discovered digital and have been hooked on it every since. I believe art is an extension of ourselves that should have no limitations, no boundaries, and the willingness to experiment and express in various unrestricted ways. Im Also a big fan of abstract and I value the experience that art allows me to constantly see with a new pair of glasses. My most valuable tool is my imagination. With no art schooling under my belt I stand with the belief that success is all in what you make it. We are all unique with no two perceptions being the same, yet all driven with a similar passion. Art is an experience of individuality that can’t be expressed in words, yet our visions can be shared with the world. My journey through art is one that leads me to great self discovery, and an education of a life time. My altered reality becomes the truth I seek, and the embodiment of my soul. With art I will always be free.” Be sure and stop by and tell him I sent ya ! Im sure he will appreciate you all more than you could know ! Its up to each of us to help one another and get us all out there ! Thanks again ! Hugs to each of you and have a wonderful day!!!!! Bonita
August 12th (my birthday) You should embrace: New horizons, persistence, details You should avoid: Stubbornness, lack of humility, ...
August 12th (my birthday) You should embrace: New horizons, persistence, details You should avoid: Stubbornness, lack of humility, being defensive General Leos born on August 12 generally know what they want out of life and don’t know the meaning of the word “quit.” They go after their personal and professional aspirations with everything they’ve got. They also know how to bring out the best in others and act as an emotional bulwark to shy or insecure individuals. Friends and Lovers August 12 natives take friendship as seriously as they take romantic love, and they seek to create emotional empathy with the people they care about. When they meet someone who appeals to them physically and spiritually, they create a magical emotional environment to protect their love and sense of togetherness. Children and Family If these folks enjoyed a particularly happy childhood, they will return to it in their mind during times of trouble. They have a real affinity for parenthood. They connect to their children on an amazing level. Despite their tenderness, they are strict disciplinarians who want their children to learn useful life-lessons. Health August 12 people enjoy living well, and this includes sampling life’s pleasures that aren’t healthful. While a regular exercise routine can help to offset some of their bad habits, they need to drink plenty of purified water. Career and Finances August 12 people have a great deal of artistic talent. They need to be proud of their craft and will hone it to perfection. Because of their determined approach, they usually find financial success, though it doesn’t really matter to them. They are more concerned with producing a worthwhile life than in capturing rewards. Dreams and Goals These individuals have a very personal view of success, with goals directed more at process than product. They see their work as a pathway to a spiritual destination that cannot be accomplished through compromise of any sort. Their personal goals have the same level of integrity. They want a shared closeness, but it must be real, not imagined.
My beautiful 7 year old Beagle was sent to the Rainbow Bridge on Oct. 4, 2008. My parents had to put down Rosie on Saturday morning, she …
My beautiful 7 year old Beagle was sent to the Rainbow Bridge on Oct. 4, 2008. My parents had to put down Rosie on Saturday morning, she started having back problems, and the vet gave her medication to help her ease the pain, and it worked for a while, then, for some reason, my parents said she came back inside hobbling, basically dragging herself behind the tv set, and just yelping and whimpering, and panting, trying to figure out what happened with her back legs, and so my parents took her to the vet, and found out that she was paralyzed from her middle of her back to her back legs. It would have cost us thousands of $ to have surgery on her, which we cannot afford and there was no other guarantees, no other options, so.. we had to put her to sleep, to ease her pain and now she is in a better place.. I just regret that I could not be home for her, to say goodbye, and that is enough to kill me right now. In dedication, I would like to share my “cards/prints” I have used of her. Rest easy pretty girl, you can run again, and I’ll see you again someday. Thanks for being a great dog and you’ll be deeply missed.
... to the Valentine and Hearts group for featuring my *Valentine Love – Big Shin…
... to the Valentine and Hearts group for featuring my Valentine Love – Big Shiny Heart Gold Scroll Card! This made me really happy! Hugs, / Ruxique :)
I hope we are forgiven, one day! This is a bit of conversation betwixt me and my eldest daughter. For the record, my hormones were we…
I hope we are forgiven, one day! This is a bit of conversation betwixt me and my eldest daughter. For the record, my hormones were well in check when she said this to me, so I was being a smart-alec about it. Her: Oh, God. Mom! Control your hormones. Me: No! I spent far too much of my life controlling my hormones, including pretty much the entire time I was married,and the majority of my teenage years (no matter what anyone ever says to the contrary), and etc. So, no, I just shall not. I demand my hormones be immediately married off to a crippled weirdo and be allowed to roam freely over his clown tattoos. Thank you! Her: If I didn’t know that you already knew this crippled weirdo with clown tattoos, that would be oddly specific. Now, on to the feature: Electric Pastel Rush was just featured in Outsiders! about 2 hours ago. Lovely!
I’ve made so many introductions that I don’t ever know what to say. I, of course, am here to communicate with other artists, to browse ar…
I’ve made so many introductions that I don’t ever know what to say. I, of course, am here to communicate with other artists, to browse art, and to let my art be noticed. I do many mediums such as pencil, charcoal, photo manips, photography, and mixed media types. I do more photography since it seems to be my most favorite of art :) but you’ll see others once in awhile. I am happily married with a daughter. i wouldn’t trade them for the world. They keep me going when times are tough. My daughter is over a year old and everything to me. She can be a pain but I can’t help but spoil her. It’s that cuteness she gives off :P My husband, my souldmate, my knyght, is the best that has ever happened to me. If it wasn’t for him I’d be lost :) To get to know me more there are of course things I love. I adore makeup, jewelry, fashion, beauty, dragons, feathers, roses, and shall I go on? It endless… :P A typical female love of the small things that don’t really matter. My most joy is art so you may see me browsing, faving, or checking out something related most of the time. At the moment I do not have any models or fancy studio setups. I wish I did, but in the near future I should have it. My models consist of my family, sometimes my friends, and myself. I could go and search for some, but being a mom isn’t as easy as it seems. The usual not finding babysitters easily, time frame being a problem, etc… But once I get things organized I will be able to do more. My dream is to have some type of job with art. I planned on doing illustrations for cds, books, etc…, but I never really had accomplished it. I took Graphic Design for a year at college, but since I had my child I hadn’t been able to go back just yet. My knyght is the first to go so we can take it slow. Once he’s finished I’ll go back and try and get my degree. I’m not sure if I want to stick with Graphic Design, but I may go for photography or maybe general art. I want to learn it all! :P Only the future will be able to tell. I’m not sure what else to say. If anyone would like to know more about you can always ask :) I love to talk :P Until next time…
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/ Speak – Self Portrait – © Jaeda DeWalt / !http://i25.tinypic.com/k3aw…
/ Speak – Self Portrait – © Jaeda DeWalt / / / A B S E N T I A I forgot just how deeply I’ve missed, my second passion, writing . . . until recently. It feels so good to let myself spill out in words. As I write this, the musical ecstasy of David Avarados, “Mayasongs” washes over my sensual soul. I didn’t want to come out of seclusion, I was quite content swimming inside my serene sea of solitude. I was kind of jolted out of seclusion by a magical series of encounters and events. After which, I realized, the box I was living in was getting smaller and smaller as the outside world loomed larger and larger over my isolated existence. I knew it was time to make some fundamental changes. BEFORE this strange series of recent events, I was quite the idealist. I wanted to give my friends my undivided attention, enjoy, connect and celebrate them during stress-free times in my life. Because on Planet Jaeda there are no interruptions when friends are over, no phone calls, text messages, all sense of time slips away. And I love giving my friends the 5-star treatment :). Good food, magical environment and a whole lot of love, creativity, caring and sharing. As a result, a pattern developed, wherein, I would go into seclusion, crank out art, get my business stabilized and then take a break and seek to spend time with friends, make time to dance with life and explore this vast and vital universe. I thought It was a great plan, until recently . . . I had a long stretch of struggle as an artist, made worse, when I recently had to close out all of my Cafepress shops. It was a huge financial blow and I am now struggling to get my head above water and have to start all over, rebuilding my business from top to bottom. The road to friends, fun and connection was getting further and further away from me. I realized if I waited until things were “stable and stress free” I would be away from the outside world and my friends, indefinitely. But I don’t like anyone to see me struggle or know how much I struggle and prefer to hide out until I get stable. It’s difficult for me to invite people into my world when it becomes deprived and desperate, I can handle it, but worry others will have difficulty with it simply because they care about me. So I knew it was now or never, I had to change course. At one of the lowest points in my career as an artist, I started inviting my friends back into my world. And I thought about what it would feel like to have a friend, like me, that disappears on you all the time, won’t answer her phone and floats in and out of your life when it’s best for her . . . well that would feel LOUSY! And the message I was sending was, “I can’t be bothered, I don’t care, this is the Jaeda show, don’t ya know”. The real message was, “I want to wait until I can completely focus on you”. BUT that isn’t what my actions were communicating. Which is another reason I changed course. Stress or no stress, good or bad, chaotic or serene, I knew I had to learn how to have people in my life on a consistent and normal basis (which is actually very uncomfortable and unsettling for me). This attitude also carried over into my art. I stopped creating for a long period of time, because I was determined to not create any new art until I got my business back up and running. But I was dying a little everyday that I did not create. I realized I would have to learn how to consistently create no matter how bad business was. I had several friends encourage me to keep creating, telling me that, expressing my creativity would help to fuel my business projects. It took me until now to follow that advice. And i am so glad I did! So today begins a new chapter in the book of my life. One with friends, creativity and connection, CONSISTENTLY. My walls are coming down and it is simultaneously terrific and terrifying. Good news is, I will be doing a photo shoot in a couple of weeks. It was difficult for me to pick a subject. I really wanted to delve into my deeper issues and more conceptual, photo-construct type work. But decided I needed to keep things simple for now, due to time constraints. So the photo shoot is going to be a celebration of pin-up and old Hollywood glamor, Jaeda style :). Will feel so good to get back into the studio! And this is where ABSENTIA abruptly ends . . . To continue on this journey with me, please read the blog, “SPEAK” below. / —-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-—-— S P E A K After a freakishly long period of self-imposed seclusion, I have emerged from the ethers of my tiny little universe . . . ready to reconnect, reach out, risk and GROW. I had forgotten how a relationship and new friends can ignite creativity and emotion in new and novel ways. I have a 24-hour imaginarium going on in my mind and don’t naturally seek outside stimulation or inspiration and forgot how powerful it can be! It causes me to push up against myself and take a new inventory. This leads to the discovery of unexplored personal and / creative terrain as old selves are extinguished and new selves rise up from the ashes. And that is what leads me to S P E A K. I am so grateful for every relationship I have ever embarked upon. Each one offers me a chance to learn and grow, it’s a love evolution. The lessons are often bittersweet. I have no regrets. It’s always worth the risk. One of the greatest lessons, I have come away with, is that we teach people how to treat us, we really do! Recently, I had a chance to revisit certain aspects of myself, reminded that people often reflect us back to ourselves, though we may not recognize our own reflection right away. S P E A K seems such a simple thing to do, but it is something I struggle with. My voice, my power, were taken away so young, I am still learning how to find my voice. For so long I didn’t have one and took a passive/aggressive approach to getting myself heard. Took me awhile to realize that the reason passive/aggressive people irritated me so much is because it was a disowned part of myself, that I / could only acknowledge through others, possessing the same tendency. This, of course, also has to do with boundaries. I desperately wanted them and always expected / others to set them for me. My boundaries were torn down as a child. I didn’t know what boundaries felt like, looked like or sounded like, it was a foreign land of security and protection that I desperately craved. And instead of people setting boundaries for me, they crossed them. I realized I wouldn’t draw people that set and maintained good boundaries until I became a person that set and maintained good boundaries. I’ve come a long way on all fronts. I still struggle to be direct, to stand up for myself, to set and enforce boundaries. But over the years I have been able to weed all of the toxic relationships out of my life. I am free and clear that way, and it feels so liberating! We ARE the company we keep, I have learned this one the hard way. So every once in a while we should look around ourselves and ask ourselves how we really feel about the people in our lives. Some friendships are seasonal, some relationships are seasonal . . . they are only meant to be a temporary part of our journey, other friends, other relationships are meant to endure to the end. People tell you who they REALLY are by their actions, their behavior, the way they speak of their past, what they share and what they don’t and by the way they treat others in their life. / Through everyday conversation and the unraveling of time you can tell what a person wants, what their issues are, what they need, what they want from you. All you have to do is be a keen observer and a good listener. One of the best gifts we can give people is our integrity and honesty. If we don’t want to be friends with someone and do so out of guilt or fear, are we really doing that other person any favors by placating them? Set them free, let them discover a new person that really wants their friendship. Sure they will be hurt short-term but give them some credit, they will manage and they will move on. I firmly believe that one-sided attractions and friendships are a recipe for needless suffering. Relationships need to be balanced and interdependent. Relationships are best when they encourage us to give from a place of love, freedom and abundance. Relationships shouldn’t steal from you, they should enhance your life, enhance your world. This is why toxic relationships never work. Love is not possession or manipulation. And I am going to say it, the big “E” word. The Ex . . . When I was younger I would try and stay friends with my ex’s, not wanting to completely miss out on the love we once expressed to each other, the friendship, the emotional investment I made. This made it really difficult to heal from the relationship and move on. But then, inevitably, someone new would come along and being entangled with my ex’s meant the new person in my life didn’t have a clean emotional slate with me . . . as my past was in the present, haunting and complicating a budding relationship. I feel that Ex’s are best left in our heart, memories and photo albums. They played a significant role in our lives at one time and we shouldn’t pretend they don’t exist but it’s also good to live in the present and be fully ready to embrace new experiences free from sticky emotional residue. Emotional limbo is NOT a good place to be. However, I am not referring to relationships where children are shared, I have no experience with that and I can’t really speak to it. Patterns are meant to be broken . . . we are romantically drawn to the ones that hurt us at our core, that bring up our wounds from childhood. They call to our inner-child and that makes us feel whole and alive with fantasies we will change the ending, and unlike our caretakers, they won’t hurt us, instead they will heal our old hurts and we will live in love’s bliss. It makes that persons love GOLD to us. We all have a hurt panel with the wrong buttons waiting to be pushed by the right person. That’s what gives us our pattern. BUT patterns are meant to be broken. We can make a conscious choice to not fall into a pattern. We can seek to heal our wounds and co-create/nurture healthy relationships. I am so far from being a relationship expert! LOL But I have learned so many of the above lessons, the hard way and was bursting to share my experiences. More and more, people are showing me fundamental aspects of myself, that I need to change on a core level and I am grateful for the revelations and the chance to learn and grow :). Relationships can go a long way toward self-discovery and enriching our interior lives. Each person can open up a new universe inside of us. Thank you to every single person that has touched my life, transforming it in the most amazing and unexpected ways. PEACE and LOVE / j a e d a / /
wiki defines ‘unrequited love’ as love that is not openly reciprocated, even though reciprocation is usually deeply desired. The beloved …
wiki defines ‘unrequited love’ as love that is not openly reciprocated, even though reciprocation is usually deeply desired. The beloved may or may not be aware of the admirer’s deep affections. ‘unhealthy love’....well that is open to interpretation… offload your stories…. and i will create a reminder of your pain…a calendar :) / all you have to share with me is a relevant month and the stories… you will remain anonymous… IMPORTANT PLEASE BMAIL ME IF U WANT THIS TO BE PRIVATE… WRITING IN COMMENTS IS PUBLIC VIEW!
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