MY Dearest Jim
Thank you God For Putting Jim There at the Moment Of Chance
There you go again god creating
There are Beautiful Angels That Are Heroes That walk the Planet
So ordinary, Yet they are Disipels of God!
IN My Darkest hour,I was close to death at one stage
Depression can cause heart attacks and stroke!
I met jimmy after a heart attack and after breaking up with an evil man 6 months earlier!
Thank god for Jim!
Jim also went through depression
Has ways of dealing with depression that I don’t always agree on
We helped each other recover in many ways
We dance together
Paint and Create together
Share the strongest Love of the Deepest Meaning
Bless Jim’s kindness and sensitivity
Jim asked me very early to follow him to god and Jesus
And God became my best friend
I do believe god does provide
We just need to let him in!
Pray and more pray!
It is meditation to the soul!
The evil man sold his soul,
The pack is like a source of temptation of change of thinking patterns,
It dwells and roars from dark sources!
It sits there and spreads like a cancer!
It follows you, Like Dark spirits on your back,
Invisible to the eye,
But so visible to what is expressed through emotion and rage,
The feeling that cuts a knife in the atmosphere
He drained my energy for many years
I still wish I could help him in a positive way
I wish I could get him help
But In realism he would never reach out in the right way
left me with depression and other things
He became dark and depressed himself
Some would say maybe expressing Bi polar disorder
Mixed up with his own selfish needs
His behavior became worse and violent
Hence I am still on his hit list
I nearly died!
Some would say that I did die and come back to life!
But I went through a tunnel of light! woke up in hospital!
But strangely it was this experience that gave me strength!
Depression is a terrible thing worse than the physical pain sometimes!
But it when you refuse to give in
I am here
I am here because god wants me hear
I have my work to do
is that my animals and friends
They need me
I have to be here
I shall be here
It is not my choice
But God the Creators Choice
It is in his hands,
I have to stay,
If God takes me tomorrow
So be it.
But he wants me here
So I have to do his work