This last week has sucked. A lot of problems with my close friend at a very bad fiscal point right now… so stress is mounting. As for me, I really don’t trust any one enough to talk fully about how I feel so I try to convey a lot of it in art. Which is what I have always done. Unfortunately a lot of my feelings right now make me feel paralyzed and I just sit or lay down for hours on end so stressed out I cannot get any sleep. For me it is different than other people I know, I do not have that close of a relationship with my family and probably never will, my mom is the only one close to me. Other than that I rely on my friends to support me. Even though I don’t say it I find support in being around my friends. When things go wrong it is like the floor has fallen out beneath me. So with this one, I really tried to convey some feelings here, from passion, to lust, to things that make me feel relaxed and calm, to more dire feelings that make me want to shove a gun down my throat. Good thing is for that one I draw it rather than acting on it. Or even representing numbness i tried to represent in here. It may be hard to grasp a lot of what is going on, but when I color it and add a bit more it will be easier. I really don’t plan or thumb these things out before hand I just start drawing and see what the hell happens on the paper. and WHALLLA!