the hyper feeling just won’t go away,
It starts with energy and free flow of thoughts,
but by the end of the day I want to rip my head off.
And oh, if I am too much for friends and family,
then I’m bannished to my room,
where the talking continues.
Here on the ‘net,
I can let myself go.
Without thought or worry to my levels cheer.
But if made angry,
I’m quick to respond,
it feels like a bloodflow running through my arms.
Here it is now evening and still I am wired.
Can’t sit still,
or calmly respond.
I gnash my teeth,
and torture my tongue,
trying to keep my words in,
and my demeanor calm.
It’s painful when people say, “You’re too much”
Cuz I know it,
but can’t stop it,
and wish to be able to easily flow.
My shoulders are tense,
and my neck cracks every few minutes.
My toes wiggle and I look desperate to fix it.
and lower your voice.
Is what I hear on a manic day.
I can’t wait for the day to end,
when I can take my meds.
cuz then I relax and feel my emotions on the mend.
But right now,
and they say its too much caffeine…
But what about the days when I wake up this way,
and still climb the walls, with too much to say.
On a manic day,
I get the creative flow to the tops,
but I hate when my creative mind gets blocked
And that is today, how I feel
with this mania run.
Maybe someday I’ll be cool and calm
but that’s too far off,
and a dream that’s denied,
because I’m bipolar-
and my mania has overrun.