Reconciliation
Thoughts on reconciling my relationship with God after the death of my son.
Reconciliation belongs to the following groups:
All Out Emotion, All Things Poetic, Artistic, Philosophical, Dearly Departed, Live, Love, Dream: , Pleasure & Pain, Religious Art & Photography, Safe Haven, Spiritual Art, The Art of Nursing, The Healing Journey and WMGSince the death of my son
I have spent considerable time
Trying to make sense of my loss.
I wonder if this loss
Reflects some retribution
For past sins?
Crimes of the spirit,
Offensive to God.
Have I been punished?
Is this my atonement?
Is there more to pay?
Or was this a random accident?
Does God not have control?
Or if he does…
Did he not hear my prayers?
Did he choose not to listen?
With so many questions,
How do I restore my faith?
With such a betrayal,
How can I again trust?
Can I reconcile
My relationship with God?
Do I even want to?
Yes, I think I do…
It’s so lonely…
Without them both.
Irene Walters 2007
Brian Dodd
Very touching words.
Irene Walters
Thank you, Brian. Irene
Pilgrim
Irene
Sometimes I run across something which just reaches out and touches me directly. There is a sadness, courage and honesty about your words. I won’t pretend to offer you any real insight except to say that when I lost my father when quite young (and he was very young) I came to feel that the world was truly without purpose and there was no God. Over time I don’t think I have come to see a larger purpose but I have come to see how even out of the most terrible of events it is possible to draw some wisdom and even to continue to perceive the love of God. I wish you all the best on your hard journey and confidence that you will again find your way.
Irene Walters replied
Pilgrim,
Blessings to you for hearing me…. Irene