Agony - cloudless skies

The clear blue sea beckoned
a land of blue skies and sunshine
I drifted aimlessly from one place to another
fate was kind to me that day
a deep sense of despair overwhelmed me
the unknown fear
feeling frightened that me might be killed
I groaned at the memory, suffering all over again the excruciating embarrassment of those moments
I felt a sudden surge of anger
anger burn inside of me
tidal forces
a tidal surge
cloudless skies
hidden feelings suffocation
I looked at sky with intense hatred
feeling hatred towards the fear
a profound hatred of war
racial hatred!
I live forsake hatred
I abandoned myself to despair
I had to abandon my lands
how could I heal scar
I was never able to heal the rift between myself and my scattered thoughts
I effort to heal the rift between the mind and the soul have failed
the legacy of my soul still bears the scars of war
my dreams died years ago and the scar hasn’t healed yet
It is inhuman to keep a man facing the agony of execution for so long
I can’t escape the pressure
pleading for the time
sanity
tranquility
life pain and misery
I don’t know, how I could chose my path
infinite suffering
internal decay
clinging lifgt to the end
absolutely shattered
I looked shattered by the end of the game!!
Is my life an internal sin?
It seemed reality fadded away
shattered life hate agnoy and dismay
I could not hide my dismay at the moment
I forsook the soul
prolong the agony
As I live forsaken haterd!

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Comments

  • Tom Broderick IPA
    Tom Broderick IPAover 6 years ago

    wow very dark. tom

  • thanks tom my friend!

    – Ushna Sardar

  • Gregory John O'Flaherty
    Gregory John O...over 6 years ago

    sad days Ushna……….

  • yep Greg!
    thanks my friend!
    appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles

    – Ushna Sardar

  • TeriLee
    TeriLeeover 6 years ago

    This is so intense….fantastic writing…you have a way of asking those profoundly philosophical questions…
    Is my life an internal sin?

    Could be an entire series of books…lol….great job :)

  • thank you so much sweet terilee!
    you are such a sweetheart friend!
    appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles xoxoxoxox

    – Ushna Sardar

  • barnsis
    barnsisover 6 years ago

    So much hatred and no seeming way out. Sad.

  • yep byron! thats true!
    appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles my friend!

    – Ushna Sardar

  • Sally Omar
    Sally Omarover 6 years ago

    Ushna, Very profound…Sally xxoo

  • thanks sweet Sal!
    huggles xoxoxox

    – Ushna Sardar

  • devotee1
    devotee1over 6 years ago

    There is no reason or justification in acts of senseless violence. In the end, no one gains…and everyone suffers.

  • well said Joe!
    thanks my friend!
    huggles

    – Ushna Sardar

  • Winona Sharp
    Winona Sharpover 6 years ago

    Ushna, your profound look at the different lives of people, war, racial inequality, abusiveness of planet, life, and humans is an amazing sight.

  • thank you so much sweet red!
    appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles xoxoxoxox

    – Ushna Sardar

  • Dwayne Boyd
    Dwayne Boydover 6 years ago

    the legacy of my soul still bears the scars of war
    my dreams died years ago and the scar hasn’t healed yet
    50,000 watts of power here!

  • thank you so much Dwayne my friend!
    glad you liked!
    huggles

    – Ushna Sardar

  • mtda
    mtdaover 6 years ago

    Excellent. At first glance it may seem that there is no hope in this, but the very fact that you ask some of the questions you do implies that there is still hope. Great work.

  • thanks mtda! appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles my friend!

    – Ushna Sardar

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